I think I am going to cry.
I can't access the message board. My last blog was deleted because when I tried to submit it normally, that stupid sign came up above and I had to make it a picture to get around the system. I guess that was futile since the blog was deleted anyway. Why? I have no idea. Was it the profanity? Did it contain worrying topics? It was about South Park: The Movie. I tried so hard to avoid anything that would offend anyone but that is the nature of the film: offend. Three hours work, down the drain. If anyone had checked, it would have been obvious that the work had not been just copied from a website because any website that I go on to look up anything (South Park, Abortion or George Bush are a few worth mentioning) I get teh stupid screen saying no you can't.
Why can't anyone just come straight to my face and tell me my stuff is just...rubbish. Huh? My life is rubbish, might as well add the poems that don't get comments and the stories I write that nobody reads. Am I that invisible? Am I that futile? What's wrong with me? Is it because I don't go to concerts or slit my wrists or whine about labelling that I'm not good enough? I'm fed up with this. Everything I do and spend so much time and effort and energy on is just a waste of time. I'm a waste of time. Everything about me is wrong. I wear the wrong clothes, listen to the wrong music, have the wrong friends, like the wrong things, write the wrong poems, think the wrong thoughts.
Y'know what?
Good.
I'm glad I don't fit in or think the same way. My biggest nightmare is to become a cliché of my generation and probably you think I am there. I hate human beings, they think and act stupidly. There are only two types of human being: morons and hypocrites. I can't stand either. I have more sympathy for the bad guys who kill than the innocent people they kill. Something drove them to do that and I understand it because I've considered it a few times. Not that I'd do it, of course, but thought about it. Now my school think I am going to shoot them all because of a lousy poem I wrote. Great, ain't it?
One day I will die and a lot of people will be happy or relieved. There is no point in telling me otherwise because I know it.
There is only one person have any respect for left...and he doesn't exist.
Soon, I hope, so will humanity because in my opinion, they don't deserve life.
My opinion, not yours. Blast me all you want. Delete this is you want. Just prove me right by doing so.
Whatever.
Every one has problems and no one fits in. Lucky we have GSB blogs to complain about them, but theres no point in complaining about something that helps us vent our complaining.
adrea, May 17th, 2007 at 03:40:11am
Try therapy.
TMTCR, May 16th, 2007 at 04:54:30pm
I had a blog up yesterday, I checked. It was there and now it's not. I was waiting for comments for a while and I had to leave and when I last checked it was there. Then today, it ain't. I didn't delete it, that would have been stupid.
The Symantec security thing is about the message board- not the blogs. I'm at my mom's and the only thing as far as I can see that would kick me off is that there is a S e x Pi s to ls forum. I'm not moaning about it but it sucks that I have to come here to go on a site I used to love.
Oh, and I will not chill out. Someone or something has deleted one of my blogs and there's a million and one other things driving me nuts right now.
The Doctor, May 16th, 2007 at 10:53:41am
That's like a content barrier type thing, that they have at schools.
Buddy Christ, May 16th, 2007 at 09:28:13am
Dude, you need to chill out. The GSB blog mods did NOT do that, thats some security setting on your computer. When we delete/ban users from blogs; you get no warning message. Thats why it says "Symantec Web Security" at the top and not "GSB Error". If you had a blog deleted, you wouldn't be able to post anymore because you also would get banned from the section.
Kurtni, May 16th, 2007 at 08:08:22am