Is This Depression?
I'm sorry for posting three blogs rappidly, and about nothing but me! But this is the last one in a while, I promise!
I’m not saying I have a bad life, cause I don’t. Actually my life is very good. I have friends, my family is okay. I love them and all, but sometimes they just get on my nerves, like families should.
I have every material need satisfied and I have music.
But still I can’t help but feel miserable at times, and I have no idea why.
It’s usually during the night. My head feels so heavy, but at the same time, completely empty. Then I blame everybody and everything for making me this way, then I feel guilty, cause deep down inside I know it’s my own fault.
Sometimes it happens during the day as well. That sucks even more. I lock myself up and just stare at nothing in particular. I don’t think anybody has noticed though. I try to pretend you know. Fake a smile or two. So either, I’m a fucking good actress, or my friends are very much ignorant.
But what frustrates me even more than the feeling itself, is that I don’t know what triggers it. I don’t know the reason. I have absolutely no fucking reason, whatsoever to feel sad.
And then I ask, is that what they call depression? Am I depressed?
I really don’t want to be......
(not that anybody WANTS to be depressed)
- Melody
I’m not saying I have a bad life, cause I don’t. Actually my life is very good. I have friends, my family is okay. I love them and all, but sometimes they just get on my nerves, like families should.
I have every material need satisfied and I have music.
But still I can’t help but feel miserable at times, and I have no idea why.
It’s usually during the night. My head feels so heavy, but at the same time, completely empty. Then I blame everybody and everything for making me this way, then I feel guilty, cause deep down inside I know it’s my own fault.
Sometimes it happens during the day as well. That sucks even more. I lock myself up and just stare at nothing in particular. I don’t think anybody has noticed though. I try to pretend you know. Fake a smile or two. So either, I’m a fucking good actress, or my friends are very much ignorant.
But what frustrates me even more than the feeling itself, is that I don’t know what triggers it. I don’t know the reason. I have absolutely no fucking reason, whatsoever to feel sad.
And then I ask, is that what they call depression? Am I depressed?
I really don’t want to be......
(not that anybody WANTS to be depressed)
- Melody
Oh. My. God.
That is exactly what happens to me all the time. I thought I was the only one.
davey jones., June 11th, 2007 at 10:35:35pm
I think what you're going through is just sadness.
Depression is much more serious and can manifest in a permanent feeling of helplessnes, desperation and foremost grief that can last for week, or months.
However, I won't exclude the possibility of you going through an early episode of depression either.
newagecarny, June 10th, 2007 at 05:55:37pm
I would say maybe but my opinion doesnt matter too much, eh?
If I were you Id try to find a distraction, like maybe a sport or a club, so you stay busy that way maybe you wont have a chance to get down. And I dont think you have to have a terrible home life to be depressed..
banquo, June 10th, 2007 at 02:50:19pm
It doesn't have to be something happening. I can have the best day of my life, but even so I end up feeling lonely.
I dunno. It's just frustrating.
It might be just a state and I need something to fulfill me.....That was actually not such a dumb idea. I'll try that ;D
I Rule: End Off!, June 10th, 2007 at 11:15:24am
Hmm, this is tough. It could be depression, but I don't think it's that likely, although I don't really know you so I can't tell.
Do you do lots of extra cirriculars (sp)?
If you don't, I would suggest getting a hobby or joining a sports team or some sort of club, especially ones that have weekly practices. Often they just take your mind off everything because you have to focus on stuff. Also they give you something to look forward to if you like it.
Miley Cyrus, June 10th, 2007 at 10:13:39am
hmm I also don't know what it is. Does itmaybe happen after something happens? like...idk...
It sounds lame but maybe it's just a state? something that comes along with puperty?
maybe you just need to find something to fulfill you?
Love, June 10th, 2007 at 09:24:23am