You Might Have Noticed my "slight obsession" for The Academy Is...
You Might Have Noticed my "slight obsession" for The Academy Is...
This is a useless rant for me to get some things off my shoulders. Leave if you don't want to hear it. If you're going to read it, you might as well comment it while you're at it.
I guess I have no real reason for liking them so much. Except the fact that some songs have helped me through some hard times in my life.
They've made my life better and worse at the same time. They've made it better by rescuing me from a disease called depression. They can make me laugh, they make me smile. Because of them it's been a fucking long time since I last cut. But, because of them, everyday, if I haven't cried myself dry of tears, I cry. I cry so much over them, for the past week I haven't been able to cry a bit. After every laugh I have after watching an episode of TAI TV, I feel the need to cry.
And it's all over a stupid reason. It's because I can't see them when they play here in October or November. No one knows how much those shows would mean to me, if only I could see one. People say they know, but they have no fucking clue. I would die to see them. Whenever I ask if I could maybe, just maybe, go see one show, my mom either says "Oh, you are so deprived" [sacastically] or "We can't afford it" or "You've already seen them" [four fucking songs, some fucking gig]. Something like that.
I've waited for someone to say "You really do love them, don't you" but no one seems to want to. I want someone to say that it's not an obsession, that it's love. Because it is. I'm dying for my friend to get hom from Panama, because she said everyone has a true love. And well, I've found mine - mine's The Academy Is...
I would do anything to meet Mike. He's my hero, he's basically my inspiration to keep playing guitar and not give up. He makes me laugh, even by looking just looking at him. I'd do anything to meet all of them. I've already met William and Butcher, two down, three to go.
It's because of Mike and Chislett I've spent hours in my room, trying to play Slow Down or LAX to O'hare, and kept playing it. It's because of Sisky I'm picking up bass. It's because of Butcher I try to play the drums to Classifieds. It's because of William I'm a wreck. And no, I'm not hopelessly in love with him - I'm just in love with his voice.
It's because of Classifieds I watch that video on repeat, wishing to have Sisky pop out of a box for me.
It's because of Everything We Had I've been able to blast one song and stop crying over my best friend hating me.
It's because of Slow Down I've ran through my house screaming take back everything you ever said... and the rest of the chorus.
It's because of Neighbors I imitate every move William makes in the video when I listen to that song.
It's because of Black Mamba I sing to magazines or newspapers.
It's because of the whole fucking band I'm writing this.
It's because of the whole band I've locked myself in my room, blasting Almost Here when my parents yell at me.
It's because of the whole band I'm being told by my parents right now to get the earphones out of my ears and stop crying.
And that's why I have to go. But don't you dare tell me it's just an obsession or an infatuation. Don't you dare tell me I can't love them because I don't know them.
Because I do love them. And it's not an obsession or an infatuation.
[Title cred - "You Might Have Noticed" - The Academy Is...]
This is a useless rant for me to get some things off my shoulders. Leave if you don't want to hear it. If you're going to read it, you might as well comment it while you're at it.
I guess I have no real reason for liking them so much. Except the fact that some songs have helped me through some hard times in my life.
They've made my life better and worse at the same time. They've made it better by rescuing me from a disease called depression. They can make me laugh, they make me smile. Because of them it's been a fucking long time since I last cut. But, because of them, everyday, if I haven't cried myself dry of tears, I cry. I cry so much over them, for the past week I haven't been able to cry a bit. After every laugh I have after watching an episode of TAI TV, I feel the need to cry.
And it's all over a stupid reason. It's because I can't see them when they play here in October or November. No one knows how much those shows would mean to me, if only I could see one. People say they know, but they have no fucking clue. I would die to see them. Whenever I ask if I could maybe, just maybe, go see one show, my mom either says "Oh, you are so deprived" [sacastically] or "We can't afford it" or "You've already seen them" [four fucking songs, some fucking gig]. Something like that.
I've waited for someone to say "You really do love them, don't you" but no one seems to want to. I want someone to say that it's not an obsession, that it's love. Because it is. I'm dying for my friend to get hom from Panama, because she said everyone has a true love. And well, I've found mine - mine's The Academy Is...
I would do anything to meet Mike. He's my hero, he's basically my inspiration to keep playing guitar and not give up. He makes me laugh, even by looking just looking at him. I'd do anything to meet all of them. I've already met William and Butcher, two down, three to go.
It's because of Mike and Chislett I've spent hours in my room, trying to play Slow Down or LAX to O'hare, and kept playing it. It's because of Sisky I'm picking up bass. It's because of Butcher I try to play the drums to Classifieds. It's because of William I'm a wreck. And no, I'm not hopelessly in love with him - I'm just in love with his voice.
It's because of Classifieds I watch that video on repeat, wishing to have Sisky pop out of a box for me.
It's because of Everything We Had I've been able to blast one song and stop crying over my best friend hating me.
It's because of Slow Down I've ran through my house screaming take back everything you ever said... and the rest of the chorus.
It's because of Neighbors I imitate every move William makes in the video when I listen to that song.
It's because of Black Mamba I sing to magazines or newspapers.
It's because of the whole fucking band I'm writing this.
It's because of the whole band I've locked myself in my room, blasting Almost Here when my parents yell at me.
It's because of the whole band I'm being told by my parents right now to get the earphones out of my ears and stop crying.
And that's why I have to go. But don't you dare tell me it's just an obsession or an infatuation. Don't you dare tell me I can't love them because I don't know them.
Because I do love them. And it's not an obsession or an infatuation.
[Title cred - "You Might Have Noticed" - The Academy Is...]
Whenever I ask if I could maybe, just maybe, go see one show, my mom either says "Oh, you are so deprived" [sacastically] or "We can't afford it" or "You've already seen them" [four f*cking songs, some f*cking gig]. Something like that.
What if you got your own ticket? Would she let you go then?
Kurtni, July 18th, 2007 at 06:09:17am
I know what you mean. People don't seem to understand how much a band could mean to a person. I think it's cool that you really like them. I haven't heard many of their songs, but the guy whose singing (I don't know his name) sounds really good. As well as the other instruments. They sound awesome too. I'm glad that they've helped and that their music has touched you emotionally.
threeam., July 18th, 2007 at 05:38:32am
Avalon, i know you love them.
i probably have no idea how much they really really mean to you.
but i know they mean a hell of a lot.
they are an amazing band.
and because they've helped you so much, and they make you happy, i love them to f*cking death.
all i want is for you to be happy.
and i wish i could get you to see them somehow.
i love you so much. <3
dancepaigeydance;, July 18th, 2007 at 05:32:58am