2 poems/songs I wrote

as i sit through another raining day. my breath foggs up my window pane. i go through the same shit each day. nothings been the same since you left me and ran away. drown me in gasoliene. light the match and watch me burn. laugh as you listen to me scream. you're only good at one thing. making my mascara bleed. i try and block you out when i close my eyes. i don't wanna be reminded how much i love you. i just want to hate you and forget everything good and remember your lies. get out of my heart, im sick of dreaming about you when im sleeping in my tear soaked bed. if i can't get you out i'm going to end up with a bullet in my head. drown me in gasoliene. light the match and watch me burn. laugh as you listen to me scream. you're only good at one thing. making my mascara bleed.

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once again you creep in the back of my mind. and as i think about you one last time. cold, black tears stream down my face. its all the cruel things you've done and everything you've said you can't take back or erase. and i take one last breath. you're an addiction more deadly than meth. but no longer will be the thought of you and me. i'm going to end this nightmare i once thought was a dream. i choke back yet another pill. i sit back, close my eyes, and stay still. your love was the death of me. but this is it, as everything goes cold and black i finally know i'm free. i hope you're happy. this is what you did to me<3