A Jagged Gorgeous Winter...<3

I think my life is finally just how it should be. The entire situation with the guy who was dating a friend but liked me...well thank God it is all over...Amber is no longer my friend, but I have the most wonderful boyfriend anyone could ask for. I am going to marry him someday, I can feel it. It started out perfectly forbidden but ended in the best decision I have ever made in my life. I am sad to hurt a friend, but this is how it should be. He was unhappy with her, with me he is a different person. A happy, wonderful person.

My life has changed so quickly in a matter of a couple weeks. Everything is moving so fast, but it is exciting and wonderful. I am in love, without a doubt. When I am with him I feel whole, when I am not I STILL feel whole because part of him is always with me. This is the deepest feeling I have ever felt. He makes me feel so beautiful, perfect. I hope that I make him feel perfect. He is truly perfect to me. Its insane how he is everything I always wanted, everything I always wished for from appearance to personality. I never thought it was possible to have everything I have always wanted. Its like he was built for me. I feel like I am living in a dream. I thought I loved Storm but what I felt for him is nothing like what I feel for John. I have never been able to see myself living past the day I was in, but I see myself with John forever. I can imagine a future now. I want to live forever if only to spend my life with him. This may sound silly to some, but I believe in all that fairy tale soulmate meant to be stuff that I thought was bullshit. I only hope that this feeling will last past the happy first year or two that we will surely share. I hope 5 years from now, 10 years from now, 20 years from now we will still be in love like this. I am so happy.
Posted on January 7th, 2010 at 02:44am


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