Little Miss Undecided
I can't decide on my future at all.
I don't really feel like staying on at school, or going to university or college. I don't want a job yet, I don't feel like roaming, I don't want to do anything.
I want to sleep and write poetry and sleep again.
I wouldn't truly give a damn if I never spoke another word in my life.
I would love to lock myself away in a room with a warm bed, computer, food and a toilet. I'd have enough supplies so I wouldn't need to ever unlock the door again. I wouldn;t give a damn about my apperance so I wouldn't need to bother with showers or whatever. I know it sounds disgudting but I don't care. I just want peace and quiet to write, think and sleep.
Sleep is so wonderful. I can't get enough. No matter how much I sleep, i still feel achingly tired. It's funny though, I can dream after a few minutes of sleep. Really. I once had a dream and I was only asleep half an hour in total. Very vivid dreams too.
I don't want to be a goddamn hypocrite either, like being a journalist or a column writer. I'd rather jump from somewhere high.
Ick.
If only; if only the woodpecker cries,
the bark on the tree was as soft as the sky.
The wolf waiting down below howling to the mo-oo-oon
If only; If only.
I don't really feel like staying on at school, or going to university or college. I don't want a job yet, I don't feel like roaming, I don't want to do anything.
I want to sleep and write poetry and sleep again.
I wouldn't truly give a damn if I never spoke another word in my life.
I would love to lock myself away in a room with a warm bed, computer, food and a toilet. I'd have enough supplies so I wouldn't need to ever unlock the door again. I wouldn;t give a damn about my apperance so I wouldn't need to bother with showers or whatever. I know it sounds disgudting but I don't care. I just want peace and quiet to write, think and sleep.
Sleep is so wonderful. I can't get enough. No matter how much I sleep, i still feel achingly tired. It's funny though, I can dream after a few minutes of sleep. Really. I once had a dream and I was only asleep half an hour in total. Very vivid dreams too.
I don't want to be a goddamn hypocrite either, like being a journalist or a column writer. I'd rather jump from somewhere high.
Ick.
If only; if only the woodpecker cries,
the bark on the tree was as soft as the sky.
The wolf waiting down below howling to the mo-oo-oon
If only; If only.
The future. my biggest problem. Quite different from yours since the only thing I want to do is to go to school forever and be a student forever since I cant confront with real life. And I cant decide what I wanna be so I am planning on studying it all which is the crazies thing ever since I wanna be a teacher and a pathologist Why do you think being a journalist is hypocritical? If you ask me, writing reviews is the best thing ever. You like writing, computers and sleeping. I think there is a job from you from all of that. You have time to decide, don't worry yet.
worn-out astronaut., April 4th, 2007 at 06:49:22am
I still don't know what I want to do. And it's leading up to that point where I have to decide whether to go to Uni or not.
..I don't want to start work yet. But I don't feel old enough for Uni.
..I feel exactly the same as you, pretty much.
vonny, April 4th, 2007 at 02:06:22am
I could never decide on what I wanted to do in life until some random event in my life just inspired me. I was watching House, and then BAM. My mind made all the connections on what I wanted to do in my life, put it together, and decided that the medical business is the place for me. You really can't make a conscientious decision with things like this. One day... you'll just be inspired.
I know what you mean with the dreams. I've had crazy long dreams, and it turns out I only slept for fifteen minutes. o_0
Funky Platypus, April 3rd, 2007 at 11:12:55pm
It's just that REM sleep (ie dreaming) shouldn't commence until 45 minutes after falling asleep.
The Doctor, April 3rd, 2007 at 10:36:42pm
actaully... each dream lasts about 5-10 minutes
[I think]
And the one you don't finish, you remember
southernidiot, April 3rd, 2007 at 10:35:37pm