O.C.D
My hands are all dry and cracked. Everyone who sees them are like ' Urghhhh your hands are manky ' or ' haha, it's cuz of those gothy gloves you wear '
... but it's not. Only I know why.
O.C.D. My hands are sore.
I am obsessed with germs.
I am obsessed with losing things.
Germs.
I wash my hands after touching things. And I mean everything
If I see someone picking their nose, licking their fingers, eating with their mouthes open, eating loud e.t.c... I will basically just scream and have a fit.
Losing things
I look behind me when walking outside, sounds silly. But I'm checking that people haven't dropped anything. When I climb into a car, I always look behind me out the window when we're driving off to see if nothing had fallen out the car. If I lose something I have a panic attack.
I can never enjoy myself now as I'm constantly worrying.
People call me things like ' dirty greeb ' at school. And I almost cry when someone calls me dirty. I'm too clean... but O.C.D makes me dirty on the inside.
I'm not trying to be annoying, I'm simply trying to protect my family, but no, it's not good enough. Because I'm too 'obsessive'. Nobody's perfect. Especially not me.
Nobody probably understands. No one ever understands me, or cares about how I feel.
... but it's not. Only I know why.
O.C.D. My hands are sore.
I am obsessed with germs.
I am obsessed with losing things.
Germs.
I wash my hands after touching things. And I mean everything
If I see someone picking their nose, licking their fingers, eating with their mouthes open, eating loud e.t.c... I will basically just scream and have a fit.
Losing things
I look behind me when walking outside, sounds silly. But I'm checking that people haven't dropped anything. When I climb into a car, I always look behind me out the window when we're driving off to see if nothing had fallen out the car. If I lose something I have a panic attack.
I can never enjoy myself now as I'm constantly worrying.
People call me things like ' dirty greeb ' at school. And I almost cry when someone calls me dirty. I'm too clean... but O.C.D makes me dirty on the inside.
I'm not trying to be annoying, I'm simply trying to protect my family, but no, it's not good enough. Because I'm too 'obsessive'. Nobody's perfect. Especially not me.
Nobody probably understands. No one ever understands me, or cares about how I feel.
I'm like you just less. I always check if I forget something when I get out of the bus and things like that..
rollerpig, June 16th, 2007 at 06:12:57am
I know how you feel. I dont have it like you do, I dont have obsessions or compulsions over cleanliness or anything, but obsessive/intrusive thoughts.
FashionCastaway, May 14th, 2007 at 01:48:30pm
I have OCD to wear i have to scream when doors close and when people hit there shoes.Just weird things like thet,and when i don't do them i get uncomfortable...also everything has to be even...it sucks...
Squid., May 10th, 2007 at 10:24:54pm
I was diagnosed with OCD a while back.
But when I was little, I used to brush my teeth constintly. I mean, I'd sit in front of the tv and brush my teeth through a whole episode of Seseme Street.
Now, twelve years later, my teeth are the worst ever. They're crooked and stained and it makes it worse when I have dental phobia.
eh?, May 10th, 2007 at 09:13:50am
i agree with <3am, perhaps you should go get some help or something, i'm sorry *hugs*
PaNcAkEs, May 10th, 2007 at 07:10:51am
]: It must be hard having O.C.D.
Skippy., May 10th, 2007 at 02:55:35am
My sister and mom both have OCD.
my moms hands will bleed, she's washed them so much.
Sydney Cloud, May 10th, 2007 at 01:03:56am
My hands are awful too because I wash them compulsively.
Also, I have many other habits that are really weird to most people.
...but, for me at least, I don't think it's O.C.D.. I'm just scared really easily and think too much in the future.
stilinski, May 9th, 2007 at 08:17:32pm
O.C.D. is a disorder where you have a lot of anxiety to the point where you do rituals etc to prevent situations made from the anxiety.
RhymesLikeDimes, May 9th, 2007 at 07:39:51pm
*hugs* I think you may need to get some help if you feel as if you have no control over it. Not that I'm saying you're "insane" or something, but in your case it seems as if you need some help to overcome this stuff.
Good luck. =]
threeam., May 9th, 2007 at 07:26:39pm
I have O.C.D and i hate germs....cuz it leads onto my emetophobia so it all comes together.....O.C.D is usually liked to a phobia or a dislike....
i understand and i care!!
it can ruin lives.
NiMrOd_1995, May 9th, 2007 at 05:52:22pm
I'm sure you're aware of the fact that germs are everywhere, so i won't say that.
With you looking behind, i kinda do that, but whenever i walk i look at the ground, to see to if anyone's lost something.
And i too also look behind.but not in the sense of OCD.
Perhaps you should tell your parents about it.
I think doctors are starting to make treatments for some forms of OCD.
Stef., May 9th, 2007 at 05:43:38pm