Yes, I am an addict. Thank you for asking.
That's right. I'm addicted to painkillers.
You don't know how hard it is to admit something like this to yourself, let alone to your friends, family, etc. I wish people would understand it. You can't make light of this subject. I've been brushed off with an array of excuses when I've gone seeking help. Or I'll get a simple "olol emo kid".
I developed this addiction as a means of coping with my depression and panic disorder. I've tried to quit a few times, but I keep relapsing. When I'm off it, I become more depressed, I get really shaky and paranoid, and I get a ton of headaches. When I give in to the urges, I take a larger dose than I quit on. I've become dependant on this drug as a way of keeping my other problems in check, and I'm just making more problems for myself in then end. Such a vicious circle.
I'm trying to get help though. I've admitted to myself that I have a problem, I'm lowering my dosages, I'm reading into the long term and short term consequences, and I'm trying to find something to fill the void that the drugs won't anymore. I just don't have enough willpower to quit completely.
Bottomline; It's a serious problem. I KNOW it's a problem. Don't make fun of me, point out contradictions, etc. if you really care about me. You're making things worse and it's counterproductive to my recovery. I know that it's fucking me up. You don't need to tell me.
You don't know how hard it is to admit something like this to yourself, let alone to your friends, family, etc. I wish people would understand it. You can't make light of this subject. I've been brushed off with an array of excuses when I've gone seeking help. Or I'll get a simple "olol emo kid".
I developed this addiction as a means of coping with my depression and panic disorder. I've tried to quit a few times, but I keep relapsing. When I'm off it, I become more depressed, I get really shaky and paranoid, and I get a ton of headaches. When I give in to the urges, I take a larger dose than I quit on. I've become dependant on this drug as a way of keeping my other problems in check, and I'm just making more problems for myself in then end. Such a vicious circle.
I'm trying to get help though. I've admitted to myself that I have a problem, I'm lowering my dosages, I'm reading into the long term and short term consequences, and I'm trying to find something to fill the void that the drugs won't anymore. I just don't have enough willpower to quit completely.
Bottomline; It's a serious problem. I KNOW it's a problem. Don't make fun of me, point out contradictions, etc. if you really care about me. You're making things worse and it's counterproductive to my recovery. I know that it's fucking me up. You don't need to tell me.
I dont really know what to say man..
you are right I have no idea how f*cking hard addmiting that, must be
I also know I cant really help, and probably everything I can say has already been said and repeated to no end.
So guess I can just Im here for you man, and if you ever need to talk or whatever I can be useful with, Im here man always
Dumbfuck, May 25th, 2007 at 09:01:25pm
I don't think I know how hard it is to admit this to your self but I've seen my mum and dad have to do it with alcohol......
It's sad see people I care about suffering :[
Maybe you should go to a doctor be your self if it gets really bad.
I don't know what else to say so.......*hugs you* good luck :]
This Is A Crass Song, May 24th, 2007 at 05:51:55am
Well I think you should tell someone you absolulety trust to try & seek help.
I'm not so sure what else to say so.. Good luck!
Skippy., May 24th, 2007 at 05:34:54am
thats great... the first thing is admitting it. then you give up. i was addicted to some different stuff.. so when i gav up one the other got worse...
but im pretty much clean now. and suprisingly i didnt have to give up drinking when my mum turned her back. it randomly stopped itself! at least painkillers are legal? so you can tell your mum and shell help you. or someone can help.
Lyddy r teh Snaily, May 24th, 2007 at 04:43:24am
thats a brilliant first step!
ive been in a similar place; as muc as id liek to sy it gets easier from here, it now get harder, but you obviously have the will to fight. tell your parents, they wil most likely be supportive, though theres usually the first intial period of confusion wchih may cuase frustration or anger, but give them time. you need the support. im always here tol talk. im currently on the road to wanting to recover from something, its hard, but from what i hear, worth the fight. good luck! =]
[[PoliticalPunk.]], May 24th, 2007 at 02:56:52am
it's good that you can admit something like this. It's good that you're warning others as well. I hope that you can over come this and I'm glad that you're willing to try.
Good luck.
threeam., May 24th, 2007 at 01:13:06am
*hugglies* everytime you ty to take one, drink mountain dew instead
it's the caffiene in them that's addictive
and at least caffiene in soda is... better for you? =]
hope you get better
*hugglies*
Blue!!! -Spazzes-, May 24th, 2007 at 01:07:30am