Death
Death
This is about my own experience with death and factors relating to this subject and so I placed it in the 'Life' section.
I’m going to talk about an experience I had a few years back. One experience I haven’t really taken the time to talk about in much detail.
The icy-cold air sifting in through the window took my breath away as I sat in the assembly hall. There was no easy way to describe the atmosphere in that room on that cold Tuesday morning. People were grieving, a loss had happened to every single one of us. A boy we had gone to school with had been battling against cancer. A brain tumour. And now we sat at his memorial. Listening to his favourite song play through. The gentle guitar riff mimicking the tears that were slowly slipping.
Running, down corridors through, automatic doors
Got to get to you, got to see this through
First night of your life, curled up on your own
Looking at you now, you would never know
For me, this experience wasn’t just about the loss of a friend. My grand-dad was also battling cancer in a ward at the local hospital and I knew it wouldn’t be long.
As members of my class began to talk about our friend, our classmate, our memory; my feelings had changed. I too, felt a more evident loss. I knew his time had come: the shifting in my heart told me so.
I see it in your eyes, I see it in your eyes
You'll be alright
I see it in your eyes, I see it in your eyes
You'll be alright
I walked out of school that day, the rain pouring to match my mood. A typical pathetic fallacy you could say. And as I saw my parents awaiting me, my pace quickened. The guilt of not having visited him in a few days overpowered me and haunted me for too long. Breaking the news to my younger brother was even harder. Watching him cry his heart out made me ache inside.
But I knew. I knew that it was right and that it was meant to happen. He wanted to join his wife. They are now together. United. Forever.
The days that followed were the hardest I’d experienced. Breaking down crying in the middle of class, showing I was just human like everyone else. Even if they’d thought otherwise. But it made me strong and able.
You got wires, going in
You got wires, coming out of your skin
You got tears, making tracks
I got tears, that are scared of the facts
As I reflect upon this situation I realized it only added to the person I’m gradually becoming. Death is a natural experience and not one we can help.
Any comments would be appreciated.
This is about my own experience with death and factors relating to this subject and so I placed it in the 'Life' section.
I’m going to talk about an experience I had a few years back. One experience I haven’t really taken the time to talk about in much detail.
The icy-cold air sifting in through the window took my breath away as I sat in the assembly hall. There was no easy way to describe the atmosphere in that room on that cold Tuesday morning. People were grieving, a loss had happened to every single one of us. A boy we had gone to school with had been battling against cancer. A brain tumour. And now we sat at his memorial. Listening to his favourite song play through. The gentle guitar riff mimicking the tears that were slowly slipping.
Running, down corridors through, automatic doors
Got to get to you, got to see this through
First night of your life, curled up on your own
Looking at you now, you would never know
For me, this experience wasn’t just about the loss of a friend. My grand-dad was also battling cancer in a ward at the local hospital and I knew it wouldn’t be long.
As members of my class began to talk about our friend, our classmate, our memory; my feelings had changed. I too, felt a more evident loss. I knew his time had come: the shifting in my heart told me so.
I see it in your eyes, I see it in your eyes
You'll be alright
I see it in your eyes, I see it in your eyes
You'll be alright
I walked out of school that day, the rain pouring to match my mood. A typical pathetic fallacy you could say. And as I saw my parents awaiting me, my pace quickened. The guilt of not having visited him in a few days overpowered me and haunted me for too long. Breaking the news to my younger brother was even harder. Watching him cry his heart out made me ache inside.
But I knew. I knew that it was right and that it was meant to happen. He wanted to join his wife. They are now together. United. Forever.
The days that followed were the hardest I’d experienced. Breaking down crying in the middle of class, showing I was just human like everyone else. Even if they’d thought otherwise. But it made me strong and able.
You got wires, going in
You got wires, coming out of your skin
You got tears, making tracks
I got tears, that are scared of the facts
As I reflect upon this situation I realized it only added to the person I’m gradually becoming. Death is a natural experience and not one we can help.
Any comments would be appreciated.
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im so sorry, my dad has cancer and i havent seen him for a year and a half, i rarely get to see him. he had a 6 hour operation yesterday on his shoulder and i have no idea how he is, if anything happens i will be so upset and i didnt even get to see him before. but you have lost two people in your life and so im so so so so sorry.
redgreendayfan, August 10th, 2007 at 06:13:02pm
I'm so sorry to hear that. And this was beautiful. I got goose pimples.
Lissie!, July 26th, 2007 at 11:16:15am
oops sorry double comment
Teh munkeh, July 22nd, 2007 at 10:49:17pm
I've established a fear of death in the past few months... I dunno whats gonna happen when i die, and i'm scared to go out the door sometimes incase i get run over by some bus and die, without telling my friends and family, "I love you". This kinda helped me a little. it was lovverly. Thankyou. =]
Teh munkeh, July 22nd, 2007 at 10:48:54pm
I've established a fear of death in the past few months... I dunno whats gonna happen when i die, and i'm scared to go out the door sometimes incase i get run over by some bus and die, without telling my friends and family, "I love you". This kinda helped me a little. it was lovverly. Thankyou. =]
Teh munkeh, July 22nd, 2007 at 10:48:33pm
I'd like to thank you all so much for reading this. It means more than you can imagine. It was hard to talk about but I feel strong to know its accepted and such like here.
<3
serenade sarahh, June 24th, 2007 at 09:20:28am
Talking, or writing about death is very difficult, but you managed to write down how you felt. It's touching, in a way and believe me I know how it feels to lose somebody. I hate having to accept thngs like death, but it's something that will always happen.
*hugs* <3
threeam., June 23rd, 2007 at 04:30:41pm
jeez, thats a load put it was beautiful :' )
tre4prez08, June 22nd, 2007 at 08:35:37pm
This was a very touching blog
-hugs-
I'm always here to talk Saz, and I care very much about you. You're the kindest person I can think of and I'm here for you.
This blog was very brave, and writing it must've been tough.
ifly<33
totoro, June 22nd, 2007 at 05:23:19pm
very touching *hugs*
Love, June 22nd, 2007 at 04:00:27pm
oh my god. *hugs tight*
i cried just reading that.
i couldnt even imagine how hard it would have been to have actually experienced it.
*hugs again* i love you<33
dancepaigeydance;, June 22nd, 2007 at 03:24:03pm
I'm sorry to hear that, but you are brave, to write about it. My grandad died as well a couple of years back, and I sort of knew it was his time to go, but I didn't get to see him before he died. At least I have memories of him. I think you know when some one close to you has passed away, and I think they know its there time to go, although I don't know how its possible to know.
LittleMissGreenday, June 22nd, 2007 at 02:29:20pm
wow... im so sorry to hear that...
but i feel clever that i know what pathetic fallacy is... we did it once...
its a really well written blog =] i hope your okay now?
Lyddy r teh Snaily, June 22nd, 2007 at 11:32:37am
wow saz
that was so beautifully written and expressed
*hugs you tight
you are so brave to be able to share the experience with us
I can't imagine how tough that must have been to write
ily<3
paper heart., June 22nd, 2007 at 11:19:50am
That was beautiful, Sazzeh, it made me cry
Very well done and I'm glad you're strong enough to share that with everybody
<3
Shorty of Suburbia, June 22nd, 2007 at 11:04:28am