Thin.
This isn't another blog about anorexia, or bulimia. It's about being thin.
I am very skinny and under weight for my height. I'm skinny, and I don't like it.
I'm 167cm's tall and I weigh 45 and a half kgs. I'm not sure what that is in pounds, but it's between 80 and 90 pounds, I think.
Girls at school don't eat and say they're "fat" and I sit, listen and think I wish I looked like you.. They're all average weight. I try my hardest to gain weight, but it just seems too make me grow upwards. I'm tired of stuffing my face, I want to be normal!
I get comments like 'Oh, she's anorexic, she never eats' and it's horrible. My ribs show like a xylaphone and my hips stick out through my shirts. I don't wear skirts or shorts because of my thin gangly legs. I don't wear bikini's. In PE when I have to wear shorts and t-shirt, I nearly cry. I get so concious about how I look. My friend Brittany is the only person who understands why I cry in PE.
Why do people strive to be this way, when you are this way you can't stand it? And that when you are this skinny, you're not socially acceptable.
I DO NOT want to be 'skinny' anymore. I don't want to cry in PE. I don't want to feel bad for being thin. I don't know how else to explain it.
Can people just be happy with being normal?
I'm not doing this to "rub it in", I'm doing to so people understand that being thin is not all it's made out too be.
I get picked on more than obese people. It doesn't make sense.
I am trying my best to gain weight. Waiting for my ribcage and hip bones to no longer be visable through clothing.
I, too, want to go to the beach and be proud of my bikini body.
Please don't take this blog the wrong way.
Thanks.
:]
I am very skinny and under weight for my height. I'm skinny, and I don't like it.
I'm 167cm's tall and I weigh 45 and a half kgs. I'm not sure what that is in pounds, but it's between 80 and 90 pounds, I think.
Girls at school don't eat and say they're "fat" and I sit, listen and think I wish I looked like you.. They're all average weight. I try my hardest to gain weight, but it just seems too make me grow upwards. I'm tired of stuffing my face, I want to be normal!
I get comments like 'Oh, she's anorexic, she never eats' and it's horrible. My ribs show like a xylaphone and my hips stick out through my shirts. I don't wear skirts or shorts because of my thin gangly legs. I don't wear bikini's. In PE when I have to wear shorts and t-shirt, I nearly cry. I get so concious about how I look. My friend Brittany is the only person who understands why I cry in PE.
Why do people strive to be this way, when you are this way you can't stand it? And that when you are this skinny, you're not socially acceptable.
I DO NOT want to be 'skinny' anymore. I don't want to cry in PE. I don't want to feel bad for being thin. I don't know how else to explain it.
Can people just be happy with being normal?
I'm not doing this to "rub it in", I'm doing to so people understand that being thin is not all it's made out too be.
I get picked on more than obese people. It doesn't make sense.
I am trying my best to gain weight. Waiting for my ribcage and hip bones to no longer be visable through clothing.
I, too, want to go to the beach and be proud of my bikini body.
Please don't take this blog the wrong way.
Thanks.
:]
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peter9985, December 30th, 2008 at 02:24:36am
I'm sorry. I cry in gym too, but it's because I have a serious disliking for it - and I know what it's like to be really, really self conscious about one thing, but you shouldn't let it worry you. It's not your fault. At least you have a rlly pretty face :]
but if it gets serious you should go to a doctor and start eating more meat or something like that
Opiate of the Masses, December 23rd, 2007 at 06:26:08am
It is usually easier to gain weight, but gaining and losing are both hard physically and emotionally. It seems like everyone is concerned about their weight in one way or another... *snicker* GSB Weight Watchers... ummm no...
I though you'd pick on me like crazy and say I didn't know what i was talking about, but you really understood me.
Ack, we wouldn't pick on you. Although it's the complete opposite, us who are trying to lose weight are in the same boat.
BREASTS, November 23rd, 2007 at 05:08:26pm
I know what it's like to not be satisfied with your body.
I'm 163 centimetres tall and I weigh 62 kilos. I'm not fat, but I've got 'boobs' and hips, but my I do think my legs look alright, maybe more than alright.
I'd suggest you to focus on the part of yourself that you like the most (as for me, I focus on my legs as a bright side) Or perhaps you have amazing eyes, or something like that? I think you're really pretty btw [:
So focus on the bright point while gaining weight. Talk to a doctor, a dietist or something like that. Be happy that you can eat lots of candy and stuff ;] and usually it's easier to gain weight than to lose weight. Believe in yourself : D I'll be here.
Lissie!, October 27th, 2007 at 07:07:58pm
If I can ever help you let me know? I battle wit things like this...Except THATS how I want to look.... Not fat me.I'm 72 KG. At close to 1,68.
Heroin Bob, October 19th, 2007 at 04:11:40am
You guys helped ALOT.
Seriously.
I though you'd pick on me like crazy and say I didn't know what i was talking about, but you really understood me.
I think I will go and see I dietition and ask for more infprmation.
Thankyou SO MUCH.
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germma margaret!, August 19th, 2007 at 06:25:55am
Its important that you don't skip meals. You should have 5 meals a day and since you don't have to worry about being fat, don't skip any. Dont stuff yourself and don't eat junk food. It will probably make you fatter, but not healthier. Just try to eat healthy, normal meals and food with more calories. And try the weight gaining pills. If it doesn't help, go and see a doctor.
worn-out astronaut., August 17th, 2007 at 03:40:41pm
I'm killing to be thinner.
I wish i was your weight.
I'm gross and have fat everywhere.
I'm jealous of you Gem.
But i know how you feel, except it's the opposite.
You're beautiful kid (:
mrs_tre_cool_, August 17th, 2007 at 01:33:09pm
I have a friend who's the same. She doesn't care too much about being thin, but she loves to eat and ravages on chocolate muffins as often as she can. People used to say 'Oh, she's anorexic', but they soon got really bored of it.
Then I had a friend [not really a friend anymore] who was exactly the same - but she got highly insulted when people asked her if she was anorexic or the like. She too was always incredibly self-conscious, but would sometimes take it out on me.
It's going to be one of those things that people are going to pester you about for a while, but will get bored of it. Just hold your head high and flaunt it. ;)
I know it'll be hard. But if you can be strong [no matter how lame that sounds], those people that either whispered about you or complain about their weight will feel like half the person you are.
The Brightside., August 17th, 2007 at 10:02:39am
My grandfather always told me that when I stop growing upwards I'll put on weight. ..I still haven't stopped growing and I'm 18. -__-
vonny, August 17th, 2007 at 12:43:39am
:( I rlly don't know what to say.
Maybe u should see a dietishin
Good luck
FaLlEn _ AnGeL, August 16th, 2007 at 11:14:29pm
I think you should go to a doctor, cause that's not healthy.
I know a few people who have the same problem as you,
and they wen't to the doctor and they're starting to gain weight which is good.
I heard you have to get a shot or something=\
You are normal, it's just the way you were created, there is absolutly nothing wrong with you. I know it's hard, but you have to try and not let what they say bother you.
I just guess no one these days is ever happy with there weight and it's scary. I feel bad now, because I hear what you say, and I've been trying to lose weight. I'm fat I think, and I cannot seem to lose the weight. if I eat a carrot I gain at least a pound and I really hate it. So I havn't been eating and I know it's not healthy. but I cannot help it.
Just go to the doctors, and try to talk to your parents about it and how your concerned.
I hope everything will be okay<33
Bubble Wrap., August 16th, 2007 at 10:25:30pm
it would be about 5'4'' ish
:)
stilinski, August 16th, 2007 at 08:07:50pm
maybe you should go see a nutritionist. they know like everyyythinnnggg.
my mommy's a nutritionist actually, and i could probably ask her what kind of food could make you gain weight. :] in an absolutely healthy way.
and does anybody know what 167 cm is in feet? x]
moody fallon, August 16th, 2007 at 07:03:20pm
I am not too far from your weight/height. I'm just a little taller and 7 pouds heavier. But I'm still really skinny, tbh. My ribs show and so do my hip bones.
Yet I don't think you, or me, for that matter, are ''socially unacceptable''.
I don't think being thin is more beautiful. I don't think having curves is more beautiful.
What I find truly beautiful is someone who has accepted the way they are.
I personally have no control over my weight. Well for now, at least. I have a very fast metabolism, and my anxiety and stress burn all the fat for me. It's not a good thing, but that's how it is.
Anyways. I hope you find a way to feel good in your own body :)
Good luck.
stilinski, August 16th, 2007 at 05:15:36pm