Like A Hand Grenade
I sometimes wonder how deep an obsession must run before it becomes unhealthy. To the point of stalking I guess. If I lived in Oakland, it would become unhealthy. I'd be at Rudy's Can't Fail Cafe everyday waiting for them. But maybe it's already unhealthy. I guard my 25 posters with my life. Whenever I watch Bullet In A Bible I start crying because these guys are so incredible and if they met me, they'd probably go into hiding. They're people just like me. But I don't see them that way. I literally can't go a minute without thinking about them. They have become a religion for me. I have a Green Day belt buckle, 3 t-shirts and counting, 2 biographies and counting, all their cds and hoping to get the Network's ( who is not Green Day), and a tote. I guess that doesn't look like a lot but add in things I have because of them. A belt like Tre and Billie wear, black nail polish, black lipstick, 5 pairs of black shoes, an abundance of black clothes, wristbands, a black acoustic guitar, a dislike for Smashing Pumpkins, stuff of NOFX's, a considerable amount of Ramones stuff, Rancid stuff, and Operation Ivy stuff. Maybe still that doesn't seem like much. But I'm beginning to feel overwhelmed. Some bands I only like because Green Day's said something good about them. I didn't like Nirvana until Mike and BJ talked about Kurt Cobain. Kurt is now my hero. I do make decisions apart from the influence of the guys. But they make me crazy. I think any pictures/posters of them can see and hear, so now I can't even get undressed in front of them. I've moved my bed to another room so they can't see how horrible I look in the morning. It just gets worse everyday. I just hope I'm one of the crowd here.
"She's overbored and self assured
Oh no, I know a dirty word."
Smells Like Teen Spirit: Nirvana
"She's overbored and self assured
Oh no, I know a dirty word."
Smells Like Teen Spirit: Nirvana
"I think any pictures/posters of them can see and hear, so now I can't even get undressed in front of them. I've moved my bed to another room so they can't see how horrible I look in the morning. It just gets worse everyday. I just hope I'm one of the crowd here."
---i do that tooo *shifty*
my obsession and love for them has gotten out of control
i also cry when i watch bullet in a bible
i feel for you girl
MikesCoffeeCup, January 12th, 2008 at 11:27:41am
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Agree muchly
I have the bag x]
SummerBreakdown.x, December 6th, 2007 at 06:32:34pm
Hah, they dislike Smashing Pumpkins? I never heard that X]
Unlike it might have done a year ago, that will not cause me to look at my Smashing Pumpkins CDs and question my love for them. Maybe a year ago.
I'm a little like you with MCR at the moment, to be honest. But i like to think it is in an artistic way, not in a teenage "OmG I WaNTZZ THIer BabEEZ!!!11" sort of way(that fake teenie typing is overused, innit?). I have got into bands because of them mentioning them. I thank them greatly for that. They've opened my eyes to Smashing Pumpkins, Iron Maiden, The Misfits and The Descendents, bands which i now think every rock fan should have in thier lives, and i absolutely love. Also, Green Day got me into The Ramones, NoFX and Rancid, which i can pretty much say the same for. That part is good and is to be encouraged. How else would you find them, pick up thier CD at random and spend your cash on it for no reason? Wanting hear your idol's influences is as good a reason as any, even if it is through a want to be like them.
I get the want to emulate Gerard Way, but i'm an actor at heart, and have done that with many characters over the years, fictional or real, build on the similarities and then, chameleon-like, i pick up mannerisms, not to the point of people pointing it out but to the point when i notice it and don't try and stop myself.
I'm talking about myself here. But what i'm getting at is it's kind of healthy to have obsessions at our age. You might not feel like you're being yourself, but who else are you being, it's just love, for the music that a group of people makes or for a group of people, and that's meant to be a positive emotion anyway, isn't it?
It happens to most people at some point with something. Try to enjoy it if it makes you happy to have this central point in your life =]
Boo Radley, October 30th, 2007 at 11:21:53pm
Technically, you aren't considered a Green Day 'fan' if you have merchandise. You can have as much Green Day sh*t you want, but if you brag about it and say you live your life exactly how the members of Green Day do...No offense, but that's creepy. Maybe they did change your life, which is really awesome, but some people would probably think that you want to continuously stalk them, get in their pants and have their future children [not like they'd be able to have many now cause they're getting so OLD. AHHH. BAD THOUGHTS. Anywho]
I got more into rock music from Green Day cause of the bands they mentioned, the songs they covered. I'm not much of my Green Day OCD any more, but I used to daydream about meeting them one day and not being able to control the urge to spazz.
Yeah, if I ever meet them I'll spazz. But not as much as I wanted to. Cause it would probably freak them out and they'd make an excuse that they'd have to leave. And that would suck.
I liked this blog.
I THINK I'MUNNA ADD YOU. *goes to hide inside your friend request box*
captain america, October 30th, 2007 at 02:02:46am
I used to think my Green Day poster watched me o_o
I'm not as obsessed with them as I used to be, but I still listen to them every day and if it were my choice, I'd wear my Dookie shirt every day =]
lishaaaaa, October 30th, 2007 at 01:53:02am
i know exactly how you feel.
thats how i am with underoath.
i say theyre your heroes,
not an unhealthy obsession.
dont worry about it. :)
-huggles-
dancepaigeydance;, October 29th, 2007 at 02:59:59pm