Love [my perspective and opinion]

so I started typing on this, and I clicked the BBcode thing, and went back, and all my typing was gone, which really sucks.

Anywho, I'm not looking for a debate with this blog, I'm solely[sp] expressing my opinion.


I'm going to talk about love! How cliche right? Hm, I don't care. I've just been thinking about it a lot, and I've been in it once before, I'm certain of that. It was powerful, and being around him was so great. He made me happy without trying, he made me smile, we connected, we were full of passion for each other. And okay, maybe from just that, you might not understand it, but damn, it was strong and long. Every time he signed on to AIM, I turned to a shaky and anxious mess, and I didn't know what to say. Every time he called me [which wasn't that often] I felt happy and hyper and weird. Every time I saw him, I was so crazy with happiness. And I knew him for a good eight months before we started to date, which was what I thought was long enough, and it was. We didn't end up lasting long at all, but even after we broke up, there was still the strong feelings, the awkward moments.

I think I was in love with him, but since we were both inexperienced and immature, it didn't work out.


Sorry, not trying to turn this into a personal experience thing. I'm just trying to put some perspective out there.

So now, I'm with a different guy. And I can't say the feelings are the same as they were with Kevin [who I just described], but damn I feel something for this recent guy [Taylor]. He makes me smile, we can joke about the same type of things, we do connect, not in the same ways as Kevin and I did, but we do, and we understand each other, for the most part. We talk a lot, and yes, we're pretty intimate. We do not have sex, but you know, we mess around with things. Sometimes it seems to me that the only way we fully connect is through our intimacy, which I don't want, but I realize that we aren't; we talk enough, we share our feelings, we express what we need to, and even what we really don't need to.
The feelings are strong. They really are, and I've been with Taylor for a year and three months, and we've certainly had our ups and downs, but I think we're getting a hang of not bottling up our feelings but rather discussing them without turning it into a crazy argument.
I can safely say I'm in love.

I think love is what you want to make it. "I love you" isn't a phrase you should just throw around, in my opinion. There's ways that some people abuse it, and it bothers me, because I wonder if these people even know what it really is.

I don't know what age you start falling in it, or what age it really starts existing for anyone. And I'm not gonna say it's impossible to fall in love at age 13, because I wouldn't know. There is, however, a fine line between love and infatuation.

I don't think you can fall in love very suddenly. I know people who say they're in love after dating someone for a week, and only really knowing them for that long. I just don't understand if you can really feel so strongly for someone you've only known for a week. I think that's infatuation, because in my experiences, these people have only dated the people for just that long before they end up dumping each other. Again, I could be wrong, there's probably people out there who've done that, and have been with the person for a very long time.


But what you want to make of love is all up to you. It's how you act towards the person, it's how you describe it, it's how you make it.

It might be passionate and deep, it might be simple and pure. It might be all of those combined. It might even been none. I wouldn't know, ya know? I can't say that love should have rules, despite what people try to say. They say "Oh, nope, you can't be in love at this age, you can't be in love if you're only dating for so long" I wouldn't know.

I think love has no bounds, it can be what anyone wants it to be, what anyone makes out of it. Maybe they'll take it and hold it like a dear treasure, or they'll ignore it and take it for granted.

It's what you want to make it.

Excuse any contradictions...
I'm not trying to be.