Do you know how it felt?

The pitying glances and the disdainful looks told me everything. I stuck my head down like I'd been doing for what seemed like forever and my heart sank.
Do they know how it feels to wake up every morning, dreading going to school?
Do they know how it feels to be looked at like you're a failure, a waste, a disappointment?
Do they know how it feels to sit alone, night after night, crying because no-one will listen to what you've got to say?
What about looking at yourself in the mirror, and having to look away because what you see makes you sick to your stomach?

I went through emotional torment for two to three months and this is what I felt. Each day was the same. Getting up in the morning and never being able to find motivation to get out of bed, walking into school and feeling sick at the thought of facing teachers or fellow students and then to come home to a family who had no thought for how I felt or what I was going through instead they brushed it off and went back to the usual talks of university and getting myself a proper job.
With many of my friends, I still feel like I'm being brushed away to the back of their minds, like I don't even matter anymore. I look at myself and see someone that I don't like the sight of.
Things were just to much to deal with.
I haven't fully gotten over this bad patch and I dont think I will until after I'm able to leave these things fully behind me and move on from this place.

I felt the need to rant, so yeah. (: xo.