Is It So Wrong To Want MY Day?
I live in my sister’s shadow. There’s so many things I miss out on because of her.
With her, well, she always seems to get the priority; three holidays with school this year; Spain, France and Holland…£2000 between them all. I was offered a once in a life time trip to Africa to help with my biology A-Level…but being £1000 was too much since already twice that had been spent on Rachel. I wasn’t even allowed to go on a holiday with Maria to Butlins because Rachel’s on one of her trips.
For Spain; I missed an Elliot Minor concert and 2 days of my life driving to Liverpool and back with her.
For Holland: I’m going to miss my 6th form acceptance days [long story].
But it’s France that I hate the most. Because not only do I miss an Elliot Minor signing, but it over shadows my birthday. I have always loved my birthday for the one reason it was a day about me; something which round here, I never get. Anything I achieve is over shadowed by Rachel.
She’s coming back Thursday night and anyone who comes to see me for my birthday on Sunday will focus entirely on Rachel’s trips; I know this, I hate it and it just makes me want to cry…which I am in fact doing now. Within our lives we need love.
I don’t care about the presents, just for one day I’d like to be the important one.
And I thought that for the first year…it would not be about her. When we were younger we shared birthdays because we were roughly the same age, but for the past few years my birthdays have sucked. Whether it’s me not being able to have a party because Rachel was going to Normandy or whether people only seemed to care about her piano exam she’d had earlier or whatever else; always because they were on a week-day, but now, for the first time in years I have a Sunday birthday…but I know it’ll be about her French trip.
The night she returns, I was invited out for a party my friend wanted to throw me…I can’t…I have to walk across town and get her bl**dy stuff from the train station while her French teacher drives her home. It’s not fair.
It’s just not fair.
Why can’t I have this one day?
I put up with so many things; miss out on so many moments for her…is one day for me too much to ask for?
Apparently so.
Sorry, this was a hysterical rant…
With her, well, she always seems to get the priority; three holidays with school this year; Spain, France and Holland…£2000 between them all. I was offered a once in a life time trip to Africa to help with my biology A-Level…but being £1000 was too much since already twice that had been spent on Rachel. I wasn’t even allowed to go on a holiday with Maria to Butlins because Rachel’s on one of her trips.
For Spain; I missed an Elliot Minor concert and 2 days of my life driving to Liverpool and back with her.
For Holland: I’m going to miss my 6th form acceptance days [long story].
But it’s France that I hate the most. Because not only do I miss an Elliot Minor signing, but it over shadows my birthday. I have always loved my birthday for the one reason it was a day about me; something which round here, I never get. Anything I achieve is over shadowed by Rachel.
She’s coming back Thursday night and anyone who comes to see me for my birthday on Sunday will focus entirely on Rachel’s trips; I know this, I hate it and it just makes me want to cry…which I am in fact doing now. Within our lives we need love.
I don’t care about the presents, just for one day I’d like to be the important one.
And I thought that for the first year…it would not be about her. When we were younger we shared birthdays because we were roughly the same age, but for the past few years my birthdays have sucked. Whether it’s me not being able to have a party because Rachel was going to Normandy or whether people only seemed to care about her piano exam she’d had earlier or whatever else; always because they were on a week-day, but now, for the first time in years I have a Sunday birthday…but I know it’ll be about her French trip.
The night she returns, I was invited out for a party my friend wanted to throw me…I can’t…I have to walk across town and get her bl**dy stuff from the train station while her French teacher drives her home. It’s not fair.
It’s just not fair.
Why can’t I have this one day?
I put up with so many things; miss out on so many moments for her…is one day for me too much to ask for?
Apparently so.
Sorry, this was a hysterical rant…
These sound like really crappy things for your family to be doing to you.
Have you ever explained this to your parents or anyone else in your family?
Like, in a calm, cooled way just tell them all these things that have gotten screwed up because they put your sister first? It sounds like something they should feel guilty for, especially about missing a trip to Africa. I mean damn.
nyeh., June 18th, 2008 at 06:29:38pm
I can really relate.
Everything is over shadowed by my older sister, everything.
I think it's totally right to want your birthday to yourself. It's YOUR day.
germma margaret!, June 18th, 2008 at 04:07:26am
I can sympathise.
I can't get even get an optometrists' appointment or a haircut because my 21 year old brother is still leeching off of mum and my sister thinks she can wear an item of clothing more than once, EVER.
And I didn't get a birthday party because my sister wanted to throw a random piss-up party. -_-
ZootSuitRiot, June 17th, 2008 at 11:50:29pm
Hang in there.
You'll have your day. You're not alone though, there are a lot of people who feel this way.
threeam., June 17th, 2008 at 08:35:47pm
=\ I'm really sorry...*hugs*
I know how you feel in a way.
I barely see my mom because she's always with my sister, whose 2 years older (Kaitee) She plays baseball, and she's looking to get a scholarship. Everytime I wnt to do something, I can't because they're out at baseball. It's so annoying.
I know how you feel *hugs* hang in there, you'll get your time.
Bubble Wrap., June 17th, 2008 at 07:41:03pm
I'm so sorry *hugs*
I know exactly how you feel because my sister has kinda mental problems so she always has a special treatment whereas I'm the normal one, and I'm expected to be always responsible and stuff
I won't even start talking about the present because then I'd need to write another blog
But yeah, just wanted to say that I know the feeling
Joshua Gayward., June 17th, 2008 at 12:45:34pm