She Runs With Boys.
Currently, I'm enjoying life in a small house with only one room, one bathroom, a kitchen and a living room. I couldn't tell you how many people resided with me, they come and go. But this lovely place belongs to a good friend of my mine; Jake. Sometimes we take turns sleeping on the couch, or end up sleeping beside each other in the same bed. Seems sort of weird for "just-friends" to do, huh? I have know this fellow since I was a wee child, and I don't think our relationship could be any stronger then it is now. Do I have feelings for this boy? I'm not sure. Does he have feelings for me? I'm not sure. All that I know is that we're roomies and that is bound to last for a few years, I don't think I want to live alone. Without him wouldn't be the same.
I am single, surprise surprise. I have been for months now, for the first time since I could remember. As some of you may know, my ex-boyfriend cheated on me (not the first) so I told myself maybe I should take boys out of my life for awhile and enjoy life, not worrying about "love" or dating.
Then I moved in with Jake.
For me, personally, hanging out with the guys is my type of fun. To be quite honest, I do not get along with many girls. It seems like drama isn't a issue with my dudes, and even though I have a vagina and they have a penis, it doesn't take away from the fact that yes, we can have fun and act like total tards in the middle of the mall. We can live in the same house, and it doesn't have to be awkward.
Maybe Jake is someone I could live with for the rest of my life, but maybe its not because I have feelings for him in that way. Maybe I don't have to worry about him cheating on me, or breaking my heart. He's not mine, I don't own his heart and he doesn't own mine. Things are simpler, more enjoyable, less stressful.
So should I keep it this way and forget about dating?
That is yet to be decided, but for now I'm going to enjoy being a tool with the guys, and not worry if I'm impressing them or not (:
I am single, surprise surprise. I have been for months now, for the first time since I could remember. As some of you may know, my ex-boyfriend cheated on me (not the first) so I told myself maybe I should take boys out of my life for awhile and enjoy life, not worrying about "love" or dating.
Then I moved in with Jake.
For me, personally, hanging out with the guys is my type of fun. To be quite honest, I do not get along with many girls. It seems like drama isn't a issue with my dudes, and even though I have a vagina and they have a penis, it doesn't take away from the fact that yes, we can have fun and act like total tards in the middle of the mall. We can live in the same house, and it doesn't have to be awkward.
Maybe Jake is someone I could live with for the rest of my life, but maybe its not because I have feelings for him in that way. Maybe I don't have to worry about him cheating on me, or breaking my heart. He's not mine, I don't own his heart and he doesn't own mine. Things are simpler, more enjoyable, less stressful.
So should I keep it this way and forget about dating?
That is yet to be decided, but for now I'm going to enjoy being a tool with the guys, and not worry if I'm impressing them or not (:
honestly, I agree with the whole guy friends thing.
it's a lot simplier if most of your friends are guys.
but maybe you should continue with the no dating policy for a few months and see how it goes?
then maybe see if there is something more with Jake?
never know if you don't try :]
hollywood tragedy., October 27th, 2008 at 10:34:22pm
Keep doing whatever feels right and if things are meant to be they'll happen on their own, I think.
My best friends are girls, but I do get along better with guys. Everything's so laid back and easier in a way.
threeam., October 27th, 2008 at 10:08:46pm
My my my, I think we've reached a point where I'm not too much help anymore. You're not in high school anymore. I still am. I dont know what its like in the real world.
As you may know, I'm avoiding the whole "love life" at least untill I'm out of high school. I'm not saying its right for everyone, but its just too much drama for me.
On the bright side, I'm about to be the optmist for the first time ever. Mabie things are differen't out in the real world. Suppose love doesn't stab you in the back once you're out of high school. It may, or it may not. To be honest, I truely dont know.
Whatever happens in the end, just remember: its your life. Think before you make choices. Pull out, push forward or whatever you think you need to do to be happy. Best of luck.
Blarg!, October 27th, 2008 at 04:23:03pm
It's the same with me; I get along really well with guys... Kinda sucks I go to an all girls school then. :P
But I'd advise you to keep it simple the way it is right now; it makes you happy and keeps the awkwardness away, which is really good. It sounds like you have a great relationship with this guy. See how it plays out. :]
In My Insanity, October 27th, 2008 at 09:23:38am
=]
i'm the same way, i get along with the guys much better than the girls.
if you are happy, keep it this way. enjoy your time with jake as just friends for as long as possible because if he ends up liking you back you'll eventually be together. but that complicates things and of course can end very badly. right now you have no attachments, you can like him and be happy around him and don't really have to worry about getting hurt. enjoy it while you can and if it grows into something more even better =]
suburban.zombie, October 27th, 2008 at 02:01:10am
If you like it a lot more and it makes you happy, then I say yes, keep it simple.
Skippy., October 27th, 2008 at 12:57:36am