She Runs With Boys.

Currently, I'm enjoying life in a small house with only one room, one bathroom, a kitchen and a living room. I couldn't tell you how many people resided with me, they come and go. But this lovely place belongs to a good friend of my mine; Jake. Sometimes we take turns sleeping on the couch, or end up sleeping beside each other in the same bed. Seems sort of weird for "just-friends" to do, huh? I have know this fellow since I was a wee child, and I don't think our relationship could be any stronger then it is now. Do I have feelings for this boy? I'm not sure. Does he have feelings for me? I'm not sure. All that I know is that we're roomies and that is bound to last for a few years, I don't think I want to live alone. Without him wouldn't be the same.

I am single, surprise surprise. I have been for months now, for the first time since I could remember. As some of you may know, my ex-boyfriend cheated on me (not the first) so I told myself maybe I should take boys out of my life for awhile and enjoy life, not worrying about "love" or dating.

Then I moved in with Jake.

For me, personally, hanging out with the guys is my type of fun. To be quite honest, I do not get along with many girls. It seems like drama isn't a issue with my dudes, and even though I have a vagina and they have a penis, it doesn't take away from the fact that yes, we can have fun and act like total tards in the middle of the mall. We can live in the same house, and it doesn't have to be awkward.

Maybe Jake is someone I could live with for the rest of my life, but maybe its not because I have feelings for him in that way. Maybe I don't have to worry about him cheating on me, or breaking my heart. He's not mine, I don't own his heart and he doesn't own mine. Things are simpler, more enjoyable, less stressful.

So should I keep it this way and forget about dating?

That is yet to be decided, but for now I'm going to enjoy being a tool with the guys, and not worry if I'm impressing them or not (:

Posted on October 27th, 2008 at 12:00am


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