The last two years.
I bet your wondering what happend to me. Why I dissapeared for like, 2 years. Maybe it was more like A year, Or a month, I don't know. My perception of time is really screwed up.
Well, I started selling drugs at school. I don't know what made me do it. First, it was this kid asking me for ciggarettes everyday. Then I started charging him. He told his friends and pretty soon everyone was coming to me and I made alot of money. Like $50 bucks a week. Then, after a month of that he started asking for stronger things. Valium, Xanax, Viccodin. Finaly, Acid.
Acid is horrible. Never take it. You can have very bad trips and end up killing yourself. I didn't want to deal with the rest of the day.. so I took some acid and wound up in a janitors closet banging my head against the wall and scratching the walls because bugs were coming out of my ears and my fingernails had to come off because they were poisening me. Haa. After the cops dragged me out i had ripped some of my hair out and my fingernails were on the ground.
2 weeks of intreatment (where you don't get to leave, go home, or talk to anyone but your family) In the hospital, And 6 months in a drug-rehab/trauma place, And a year in an outpatient center (3 hours of therapy, 3 of school)
They kept me so long because I was burying memories of my rape and pregnancy that happend when i was 13. I felt that i abandoned my child by giving him up for adoption and that i killed him, so I wanted to kill me too. But all those hours of therapy helped. So I'm good now. I love my life.
Soooo thats everything.
Well, I started selling drugs at school. I don't know what made me do it. First, it was this kid asking me for ciggarettes everyday. Then I started charging him. He told his friends and pretty soon everyone was coming to me and I made alot of money. Like $50 bucks a week. Then, after a month of that he started asking for stronger things. Valium, Xanax, Viccodin. Finaly, Acid.
Acid is horrible. Never take it. You can have very bad trips and end up killing yourself. I didn't want to deal with the rest of the day.. so I took some acid and wound up in a janitors closet banging my head against the wall and scratching the walls because bugs were coming out of my ears and my fingernails had to come off because they were poisening me. Haa. After the cops dragged me out i had ripped some of my hair out and my fingernails were on the ground.
2 weeks of intreatment (where you don't get to leave, go home, or talk to anyone but your family) In the hospital, And 6 months in a drug-rehab/trauma place, And a year in an outpatient center (3 hours of therapy, 3 of school)
They kept me so long because I was burying memories of my rape and pregnancy that happend when i was 13. I felt that i abandoned my child by giving him up for adoption and that i killed him, so I wanted to kill me too. But all those hours of therapy helped. So I'm good now. I love my life.
Soooo thats everything.
I'm happy that you are better now & that things are starting to go well. Stay strong & keep your positive outlook on life.
&& I'm happy you're back.
die, March 11th, 2010 at 12:11:01am
That must really really suck to go through all of that, but at least you're all good and better now. Just make sure you stick with the way you're going, and don't let yourself go down that path again.
Skippy., March 10th, 2010 at 10:40:38pm
Jesus Christ that's insane.
Thank you for sharing your story. I'm glad you got through it all and you're back on track with life. I don't know what I would do if I were in even a fraction of your situation.
Stay strong, my friend. :)
threeam., March 10th, 2010 at 06:27:46pm
I'm sorry :[
Sometimes it's good to get it all out, though.
Ohay look, you're from Minnesota too :3
I approve :D
captain america, March 10th, 2010 at 04:45:57pm
I admire you're positivity :]
I haven't been through a fifth of what you've been through, and I say my life sucks.
Glad therapy helped, and I'm glad you love your life :] x
dumbstruck., March 10th, 2010 at 04:20:04pm