Balancing Acts 2

sampalletband:

Now you're free to really find the guy who'll sweep you off your feet...


like Billie Joe

Pfft. Yeah, I fucking wish I could have him.

I bet he's wicked nice.

iamkiller:

I know. It just hurts so much.

I know...the first break up from your first real love is devastating. But he's not honoring your memories and he's not respecting you. It's completely okay to be upset but I think you need to stop sharing how upset you are with him because he doesn't seem to care and that's giving him this extra room to do what he wants with those feelings.

Happy Easter my beautiful lovelies!

I'm off to be Easterly with my family

There is too much chocolate in the world.

UGH.

Happy Easter even though I don't celebrate it. Maybe I'll convince Jill to take me to the mall to get a CD or something.

Anyone who feels like they have too much chocolate don't hesitate to mail it to me

Anthony just deleted me from his friends on myspace.

Okay, after reading the previous posts about his behavior and how you're holding up...

I feel the need to "rip out his heart, eat it, and have a cappucino afterward." Courtesy of the Fresh Prince.

Srsly. How old is this kid? He sounds like one of those middle school kids who think they're the shit and try to create as much drama as possible. He should not be treating you this way.

A Melancholy Autumn:

Okay, after reading the previous posts about his behavior and how you're holding up...

I feel the need to "rip out his heart, eat it, and have a cappucino afterward." Courtesy of the Fresh Prince.

Srsly. How old is this kid? He sounds like one of those middle school kids who think they're the shit and try to create as much drama as possible. He should not be treating you this way.

Actually I suggested a blanket party... I'm willing to roadtrip

Leah,

In all seriousness, Liz is right. You need to break it off with him and stop calling and texting because you DO deserve to be treated better than he is treating you now. Every time you call or text you set yourself up... he's not going to change his mind and you just get more and more upset with his behavior.

Leah... I am going to sound like a mother for a moment... When I'm done I'll explain WHY....

I remember my first real breakup from a person I loved. It was after I kicked my first husband to the curb... i met this wonderful man. He was an uncle of one of my co-workers. We dated and I kinda moved(just a big suitcase) in with him after a number of months. Everything went along fine for many more months... I met his parents, we said 'I love you' to each other... then all of a sudden I came home from work and he told me "I'm moving to North Carolina. I'm not truly ready for a longterm commitment.. You need to leave...blah blah blah."

Okay... I was devastated.... I cried all that night as I gathered my stuff and drove home. I was just inconsolable. I realized that I never really loved my husband the way I had loved this man.

He hadn't moved yet... so he would still call me now and again. Then he asked me if I would help his pack the uhaul. Like an idiot... I thought maybe if I helped he would change his mind or something... We busted our asses and then ended up having sex. He basically used me and I allowed it. But I still was in love with him and would anything for him.

He moved away... and I heard nothing more from him again... UNTIL about 3 months later I was cooking in the back of the restaurant and I look up and there he is standing in line waiting to catch my eye. I knew he was there for me since his nephew wasn't working that day and it a Long John Silver's so he wasn't there for the food... My heart just stopped... all the feeling I thought I had gotten over came flooding back. We sat and talked and he ended up hangin around until I got done work. We rented a motel room...

The next morning I fell used. I got dressed and he kissed me and said all the nice things and i just didn't hear them... I was tired of being treated like that.

Leah I told you this story cause I don't want to see something like this happen to you. You are much TOO GOOD for that asshole and deserve A WHOLE HELL OF A LOT BETTER.

I say what I say from experience... walk away while you have your dignity and walk towards your new life.


thank you for listening....

Luffs,
Moo

Thanks a lot.


I do feel like I'm being treated HORRIBLY. I just wanted an explaination.. and I feel like I'm just not going to get that from him.

He was my WORLD for four years. I dated this kid all through high school.. it just really hurts.

And I know people are saying I'll get over it.. and I know I will. It's just hard to hear it right now.

It hurts even more that he moved on so quickly. 4 years down the drain in a week? Ridiculous.


But thank you. I do appreciate it.

A Melancholy Autumn:

Okay, after reading the previous posts about his behavior and how you're holding up...

I feel the need to "rip out his heart, eat it, and have a cappucino afterward." Courtesy of the Fresh Prince.

Srsly. How old is this kid? He sounds like one of those middle school kids who think they're the shit and try to create as much drama as possible. He should not be treating you this way.

He's 19. And he is being a complete asshole.

I mean, he is the one that asked everyone about me and tried to go out with me.

Moose, I really wish I could hug you right now. You're being treated like a dickhead and you don't deserve it.

Will an explanation REALLY change anything? Sometimes it's best to left some things unknown. Just try and walk away from it, because it's only going to upset you if you keep thinking about it...even if you find it difficult to think about anything else.

We all love you though Moose.

Flaming Phalanges!:

Moose, I really wish I could hug you right now. You're being treated like a dickhead and you don't deserve it.

Will an explanation REALLY change anything? Sometimes it's best to left some things unknown. Just try and walk away from it, because it's only going to upset you if you keep thinking about it...even if you find it difficult to think about anything else.

We all love you though Moose.

Well, I just want to see him.

He's been lying to me. I just want a break, I still love you, I just don't like you, let's be friends, oh wait.. I have another girlfriend, let me ignore you completely, I don't want to see you again.

That is all the different steps I went through in the past week.
Bastard. I just love him.

You know what's pathetic?

I had a dream I won an award for 'Best Writer' T_T

...and that I had a baby girl with Mike. o_o

Flaming Phalanges!:

Moose, I really wish I could hug you right now. You're being treated like a dickhead and you don't deserve it.

Will an explanation REALLY change anything? Sometimes it's best to left some things unknown. Just try and walk away from it, because it's only going to upset you if you keep thinking about it...even if you find it difficult to think about anything else.

We all love you though Moose.

I don't know if I can say anything more than that, or more than what's already said. it's going to be rough, I think you know that already, but he really is being an astonishing asshole about it.

I have eaten so much freakin' candy today I'm afraid I may vomit.

iATEjimmysWORLD:

I have eaten so much freakin' candy today I'm afraid I may vomit.

Ugghhh, I'm about there too. I do this every year, you'd think I'd learn.

Fuck you catholic people.

Fuck you to hell.

Janie Jones:

iATEjimmysWORLD:

I have eaten so much freakin' candy today I'm afraid I may vomit.

Ugghhh, I'm about there too. I do this every year, you'd think I'd learn.

Haha, I know! Plus, we had appetizers, this huge dinner and dessert...omg, too much food. And then I continue to eat candy and chocolate HOURS after that.

Heyyy
Liz has arrived.