Balancing Acts 2

GrEeNdAyLoVeRr:

I had a random burst of depression earlier. I might be sulking in my bed for a few days. I realized how much of a disappointment I am to the people around me and I need to work on being a better person. I keep picking up my notebook too, I might start scribbling at myself. I need to write letters...

I wish I would have known. I should have...

*hugs* First, you deserve better and you owe it to yourself to find someone who wants more than just to get handsy withchoo. If you want a relationship then you go find someone who is going to worship you. I insist...and if Zari continues to be a jackass then I'll pay a visit.

Second, you are not a bad person. It's impossible for you to be a bad person because when you realize you have made a mistake and you want to correct that mistake, this proves that you care about the people around you and that you have a good heart. Disappointment within yourself sucks and it's part of everyone's character, but darlin', it's also okay to screw up because your friends and your family are still going to love you no matter what.

Okay, that was totally a Full House morals moment, and I apologize, but I've watching VH1's "America's Next Top Model" marathon since about 4 and I think I'm going a little crazy

*tackles Sari* Chin up!

...or I'm coming back to sing a cheerful song you WON'T want to hear!

iATEjimmysWORLD:

GrEeNdAyLoVeRr:

I had a random burst of depression earlier. I might be sulking in my bed for a few days. I realized how much of a disappointment I am to the people around me and I need to work on being a better person. I keep picking up my notebook too, I might start scribbling at myself. I need to write letters...

I wish I would have known. I should have...

*hugs* First, you deserve better and you owe it to yourself to find someone who wants more than just to get handsy withchoo. If you want a relationship then you go find someone who is going to worship you. I insist...and if Zari continues to be a jackass then I'll pay a visit.

Second, you are not a bad person. It's impossible for you to be a bad person because when you realize you have made a mistake and you want to correct that mistake, this proves that you care about the people around you and that you have a good heart. Disappointment within yourself sucks and it's part of everyone's character, but darlin', it's also okay to screw up because your friends and your family are still going to love you no matter what.

Okay, that was totally a Full House morals moment, and I apologize, but I've watching VH1's "America's Next Top Model" marathon since about 4 and I think I'm going a little crazy

*tackles Sari* Chin up!

...or I'm coming back to sing a cheerful song you WON'T want to hear!

I'm better. Thank you. I am doing the whole...I don't even know what I am doing anymore. I just hope I can be there for them like they are for me. I just realized today that I ignored signs about my brother last year that could have kept him out of the hospital. How could I have done that? I guess I didn't want to believe he was so unhappy, he tried to be so cheerful around us. I sobbed so hard today, my chest hurt. He trusted me and I didn't help him. I'm just glad he's here today. I love him and I told him that today. I wrote everything down. I... am just so relieved. I can't talk anymore though, it's hard.

How was everyone else today?

Alyssa's birthday is today ;______________; She'd be 17.

GrEeNdAyLoVeRr:

iATEjimmysWORLD:

GrEeNdAyLoVeRr:

I had a random burst of depression earlier. I might be sulking in my bed for a few days. I realized how much of a disappointment I am to the people around me and I need to work on being a better person. I keep picking up my notebook too, I might start scribbling at myself. I need to write letters...

I wish I would have known. I should have...

*hugs* First, you deserve better and you owe it to yourself to find someone who wants more than just to get handsy withchoo. If you want a relationship then you go find someone who is going to worship you. I insist...and if Zari continues to be a jackass then I'll pay a visit.

Second, you are not a bad person. It's impossible for you to be a bad person because when you realize you have made a mistake and you want to correct that mistake, this proves that you care about the people around you and that you have a good heart. Disappointment within yourself sucks and it's part of everyone's character, but darlin', it's also okay to screw up because your friends and your family are still going to love you no matter what.

Okay, that was totally a Full House morals moment, and I apologize, but I've watching VH1's "America's Next Top Model" marathon since about 4 and I think I'm going a little crazy

*tackles Sari* Chin up!

...or I'm coming back to sing a cheerful song you WON'T want to hear!

I'm better. Thank you. I am doing the whole...I don't even know what I am doing anymore. I just hope I can be there for them like they are for me. I just realized today that I ignored signs about my brother last year that could have kept him out of the hospital. How could I have done that? I guess I didn't want to believe he was so unhappy, he tried to be so cheerful around us. I sobbed so hard today, my chest hurt. He trusted me and I didn't help him. I'm just glad he's here today. I love him and I told him that today. I wrote everything down. I... am just so relieved. I can't talk anymore though, it's hard.

How was everyone else today?

Sometimes it's hard to see things when they're that close to us. And sometimes your mind subconciously blocks things out because they're scary or they're ugly, but you know, it took him going into the hospital for you to take a step back and appreciate that he's here and to realize his situation and the bigger picture in general. (I'm not saying it was a good thing what happened, but that sometimes it takes really big things to get us to open our eyes) It's just a good thing you're more aware now, doll, and it's okay to be angry at yourself and to feel sad...but you have to forgive yourself too. He would want you to forgive yourself because it wasn't your fault. It wasn't anyone's fault.


My day was good, thanks I was slightly hungover from my activities last night so I've been hanging out on my couch since I got home from work. I am almost officially sick of the internet, actually, haha. I've exhausted my favorite websites.

iamkiller:

Alyssa's birthday is today ;______________; She'd be 17.

I don't know Alyssa, but I'm sorry. And I offer you many giant *HUGS*

iATEjimmysWORLD:

iamkiller:

Alyssa's birthday is today ;______________; She'd be 17.

I don't know Alyssa, but I'm sorry. And I offer you many giant *HUGS*

Thank youu. She died from cancer on May 4th last year (sig)

She was one of my best friends

I like to ride hay bails:

iamkiller:

I like to ride hay bails:

Haha! Adorable!

iATEjimmysWORLD:

GrEeNdAyLoVeRr:

iATEjimmysWORLD:

GrEeNdAyLoVeRr:

I had a random burst of depression earlier. I might be sulking in my bed for a few days. I realized how much of a disappointment I am to the people around me and I need to work on being a better person. I keep picking up my notebook too, I might start scribbling at myself. I need to write letters...

I wish I would have known. I should have...

*hugs* First, you deserve better and you owe it to yourself to find someone who wants more than just to get handsy withchoo. If you want a relationship then you go find someone who is going to worship you. I insist...and if Zari continues to be a jackass then I'll pay a visit.

Second, you are not a bad person. It's impossible for you to be a bad person because when you realize you have made a mistake and you want to correct that mistake, this proves that you care about the people around you and that you have a good heart. Disappointment within yourself sucks and it's part of everyone's character, but darlin', it's also okay to screw up because your friends and your family are still going to love you no matter what.

Okay, that was totally a Full House morals moment, and I apologize, but I've watching VH1's "America's Next Top Model" marathon since about 4 and I think I'm going a little crazy

*tackles Sari* Chin up!

...or I'm coming back to sing a cheerful song you WON'T want to hear!

I'm better. Thank you. I am doing the whole...I don't even know what I am doing anymore. I just hope I can be there for them like they are for me. I just realized today that I ignored signs about my brother last year that could have kept him out of the hospital. How could I have done that? I guess I didn't want to believe he was so unhappy, he tried to be so cheerful around us. I sobbed so hard today, my chest hurt. He trusted me and I didn't help him. I'm just glad he's here today. I love him and I told him that today. I wrote everything down. I... am just so relieved. I can't talk anymore though, it's hard.

How was everyone else today?

Sometimes it's hard to see things when they're that close to us. And sometimes your mind subconciously blocks things out because they're scary or they're ugly, but you know, it took him going into the hospital for you to take a step back and appreciate that he's here and to realize his situation and the bigger picture in general. (I'm not saying it was a good thing what happened, but that sometimes it takes really big things to get us to open our eyes) It's just a good thing you're more aware now, doll, and it's okay to be angry at yourself and to feel sad...but you have to forgive yourself too. He would want you to forgive yourself because it wasn't your fault. It wasn't anyone's fault.


My day was good, thanks I was slightly hungover from my activities last night so I've been hanging out on my couch since I got home from work. I am almost officially sick of the internet, actually, haha. I've exhausted my favorite websites.

Haha, what are we gonna do with you? You're crazy.

And I agree. I just wish it never happened. How did he not know we love him? He does now and that's all that matters though.

iamkiller:

iATEjimmysWORLD:

iamkiller:

Alyssa's birthday is today ;______________; She'd be 17.

I don't know Alyssa, but I'm sorry. And I offer you many giant *HUGS*

Thank youu. She died from cancer on May 4th last year (sig)

She was one of my best friends

I think you're a sweetheart for putting a dedication to her in your signature.

And I think it's funny you ride hay bails in your free time

iamkiller:

iATEjimmysWORLD:

iamkiller:

Alyssa's birthday is today ;______________; She'd be 17.

I don't know Alyssa, but I'm sorry. And I offer you many giant *HUGS*

Thank youu. She died from cancer on May 4th last year (sig)

She was one of my best friends

I'm sorry. I'm sure she was wonderful and it's unfortunate that she's not here to celebrate her's 17th birthday with you and her loved ones. *hugs you*

iATEjimmysWORLD:

iamkiller:

iATEjimmysWORLD:

iamkiller:

Alyssa's birthday is today ;______________; She'd be 17.

I don't know Alyssa, but I'm sorry. And I offer you many giant *HUGS*

Thank youu. She died from cancer on May 4th last year (sig)

She was one of my best friends

I think you're a sweetheart for putting a dedication to her in your signature.

And I think it's funny you ride hay bails in your free time

Thank you. It's a daily Moose exercise.

GrEeNdAyLoVeRr:

iamkiller:

iATEjimmysWORLD:

iamkiller:

Alyssa's birthday is today ;______________; She'd be 17.

I don't know Alyssa, but I'm sorry. And I offer you many giant *HUGS*

Thank youu. She died from cancer on May 4th last year (sig)

She was one of my best friends

I'm sorry. I'm sure she was wonderful and it's unfortunate that she's not here to celebrate her's 17th birthday with you and her loved ones. *hugs you*

Thank you It was so ODD. So, she's friends with the members of Maroon 5, and they dedicated "She Will Be Loved" to her.. and I heard it on the radio about 3 times today

Marilyn Manson + Dita = Divorced.

GrEeNdAyLoVeRr:

iATEjimmysWORLD:

GrEeNdAyLoVeRr:

iATEjimmysWORLD:

GrEeNdAyLoVeRr:

I had a random burst of depression earlier. I might be sulking in my bed for a few days. I realized how much of a disappointment I am to the people around me and I need to work on being a better person. I keep picking up my notebook too, I might start scribbling at myself. I need to write letters...

I wish I would have known. I should have...

*hugs* First, you deserve better and you owe it to yourself to find someone who wants more than just to get handsy withchoo. If you want a relationship then you go find someone who is going to worship you. I insist...and if Zari continues to be a jackass then I'll pay a visit.

Second, you are not a bad person. It's impossible for you to be a bad person because when you realize you have made a mistake and you want to correct that mistake, this proves that you care about the people around you and that you have a good heart. Disappointment within yourself sucks and it's part of everyone's character, but darlin', it's also okay to screw up because your friends and your family are still going to love you no matter what.

Okay, that was totally a Full House morals moment, and I apologize, but I've watching VH1's "America's Next Top Model" marathon since about 4 and I think I'm going a little crazy

*tackles Sari* Chin up!

...or I'm coming back to sing a cheerful song you WON'T want to hear!

I'm better. Thank you. I am doing the whole...I don't even know what I am doing anymore. I just hope I can be there for them like they are for me. I just realized today that I ignored signs about my brother last year that could have kept him out of the hospital. How could I have done that? I guess I didn't want to believe he was so unhappy, he tried to be so cheerful around us. I sobbed so hard today, my chest hurt. He trusted me and I didn't help him. I'm just glad he's here today. I love him and I told him that today. I wrote everything down. I... am just so relieved. I can't talk anymore though, it's hard.

How was everyone else today?

Sometimes it's hard to see things when they're that close to us. And sometimes your mind subconciously blocks things out because they're scary or they're ugly, but you know, it took him going into the hospital for you to take a step back and appreciate that he's here and to realize his situation and the bigger picture in general. (I'm not saying it was a good thing what happened, but that sometimes it takes really big things to get us to open our eyes) It's just a good thing you're more aware now, doll, and it's okay to be angry at yourself and to feel sad...but you have to forgive yourself too. He would want you to forgive yourself because it wasn't your fault. It wasn't anyone's fault.


My day was good, thanks I was slightly hungover from my activities last night so I've been hanging out on my couch since I got home from work. I am almost officially sick of the internet, actually, haha. I've exhausted my favorite websites.

Haha, what are we gonna do with you? You're crazy.

And I agree. I just wish it never happened. How did he not know we love him? He does now and that's all that matters though.

Sometimes it doesn't matter how much you remind someone of something or how often you're there physically for them, chemical imbalances of the mind can trick them and make them believe things or feel things that aren't actually true. But yes, he IS better now and that's all that matters. You're a good sister for worrying though

iamkiller:

Marilyn Manson + Dita = Divorced.

She's a very famous burlesque dancer, right?

iATEjimmysWORLD:

iamkiller:

Marilyn Manson + Dita = Divorced.

She's a very famous burlesque dancer, right?

Yess indeed.

iamkiller:

iATEjimmysWORLD:

iamkiller:

Marilyn Manson + Dita = Divorced.

She's a very famous burlesque dancer, right?

Yess indeed.

Smart girl, get out of THAT relationship while you still can! Sorry, Marilyn Manson is chemically unbalanced and scares me. But everyone deserves love right? He's just odd is all... he needs someone more like himself.

GrEeNdAyLoVeRr:

iamkiller:

iATEjimmysWORLD:

iamkiller:

Marilyn Manson + Dita = Divorced.

She's a very famous burlesque dancer, right?

Yess indeed.

Smart girl, get out of THAT relationship while you still can! Sorry, Marilyn Manson is chemically unbalanced and scares me. But everyone deserves love right? He's just odd is all... he needs someone more like himself.

LOL. It was a bit odd

GrEeNdAyLoVeRr:

iamkiller:

iATEjimmysWORLD:

iamkiller:

Marilyn Manson + Dita = Divorced.

She's a very famous burlesque dancer, right?

Yess indeed.

Smart girl, get out of THAT relationship while you still can! Sorry, Marilyn Manson is chemically unbalanced and scares me. But everyone deserves love right? He's just odd is all... he needs someone more like himself.

Hahaha...Marilyn Manson is one of the top three men in the world that scares the hell out of me. But I like his music.