Feelings And Scars Are Permanent (Sequel to Why Do Bad Things Always Happen To Us?), chapter 12
I woke up in the morning, not really aware of last night. It took me a few moments until I realized I only had a sheet wrapped around me, taking the place of my clothes. That's when it dawned on last nights events. Billie Joe probably put me in here in case his mom saw us. Feeling a little awkward at the fact that I only had a sheet around me, I got up and put some clean shorts and a t-shirt on.
Slowly and quietly I walked out of my room, wondering where everyone was. Ollie nor Billie were around that I could tell of. I just yawned as I walked into the kitchen to get something to eat, until I noticed a note on the table.
Baby,
Ollie's at work right now. I don't know when she'll be back. But I won't be home until later. However, at 7:00 tonight, you should be ready to go someplace. Just so you know, you don't have to wear something really fancy. Maybe a skirt or a nice dress. But nothing real extravagant. I love you baby and I hope this will be a fun day for you. I love you so much.
Love Billie.
P.S. I love you.
As I finished up the note, I smiled to myself.
**
"So are you two gonna have fun tonight?" Tre asked with a cheeky grin.
"Hopefully," Billie said, not really getting what Tre meant.
Mike looked up, "I think he's talking about sex, Billie."
"Oh. I knew that. Well, uh..."
"You know, like what you had planned. Or well, were thinking about that. Your guys' first time."
"Yeah...well when we went home last night...um..."
Tre and Mike looked up from what they were looking at, giving Billie a weird look.
"You mean, you guys had sex...last night?" Tre asked.
"...Yeah."
"Hey, you're the first one in the band to lose it. Nice going."
"I thought it'd be you. Considering the way you are."
"Yeah, really."
"Well, you guys were all over each other last night. Truthfully, I'm not shocked," Mike said. "I'm surprised you didn't start it in the theater."
"Hey! Like I said. It wasn't my fault. Steph was wearing that black tank top. The one with the spaghetti straps and low front. And it was really revealing. And I couldn't help but stare at her bare neck and shoulders. And her hair was up so it was very noticiable. I couldn't help myself."
"Whoa, easy ombre. Don't get a boner," Tre said, watching Billie Joe having flashbacks of last night. "Because if you do, you're gonna have to suffer."
"I could go into your bathroom."
"That's disgusting!" Mike said covering his ears. "Why the hell are you talking about that?"
"Because Billie Joe's having flashbacks of last night."
"And I'm gonna be having flashbacks for a while. I mean, when we started, it was..incredible. And felt so good. It was like we were grind-"
"Billie, I'm warning you."
"Alright! I'm done! I'm done."
"Thank God. I don't wanna hear about you having pleasure with your girlfriend."
"You probably do!" Billie said laughing. "You probably have the hots for her."
"Nah, I mean she's beautiful but she's yours and I know my bounderies. But you just had to go out with one of the prettiest girls didn't you?"
"I don't know. But God she's beautiful and I love her so much."
"Trust me when I say, we can tell," Mike said with a smile and nod.
**
It was almost 7:00 and I was checking myself in the mirror. I was wearing my favorite dress. It was a black dress that was a few inchs above my knees. Around my waste and and to the end of my dress was this pretty see through red layer that flared a bit at the ends. I didn't want to look too nice so I just wore black flip flops and staightened my hair, pulling it into a low pony-tail. I thought I didn't look too bad.
I had to admit that I was pretty nervous. As I walked into the living to wait for everyone else, I couldn't help but think what exactly was going on. Would Billie Joe and I go on a date by ourselves? And if so, where? I hated waiting. But I knew I wouldn't have to wait too long.
All of a sudden I heard a door close and I stood up, thinking it was more than likely Billie Joe. And of course it was. He looked me up and down with a smile.
"God, Stephanie. You look beautiful," He said, walking over to be and placing his hands on my hips.
I smiled and whispered in Billie's ear, "Thank you for last night. You were so gentle and sweet. I love you and it was incredible."
"I love you, too. And you're welcome. It was incredible."
Billie Joe kissed me on the lips passionately. His kiss was full of love and excitement. Mine was as well. I deepened the kiss a bit, giggling as I pulled away.
"Maybe we should save it for later," I said with a cheeky grin.
Billie Joe nodded. "We gotta get going anyways."
"Where we going?"
"You know that park that they have uptown?"
"Yeah," I said closing the front door behind me.
"Well, we're going there."
"For?"
"You'll see."
I grunted in frustration, grabbing Billie Joe's hand. He pulled me with him to Tre's car, which was empty.
"Tre's letting you borrow his car?" I asked as we got into the car.
"Yes ma'am."
It took about 5 minutes to get to the park. I was excited, I had to admit it. And I was a little impatient. But I figured, if Billie Joe was planning it, it'd be sweet and thoughtful. And who knows, maybe even a bit...scary.
He had parked a spot and gotten out of the car, opening the door for me. I smiled and thanked him, placing a kiss on the cheek.
"So, now where to?" I asked, Billie Joe grabbing my hand.
"Just follow me, babe."
He lead me a little ways away from the parking lot and closer to the lake. I saw a little tree with stuff under it, and that's when I noticed Tre and Mike. They were talking about something until Tre noticed us. "It's about time!"
"Sorry it took a while," Billie said, still holding my hand.
"It's okay," He said. "Well, we'll be leaving you lovely couple."
"Uh, yeah. What Tre said," Mike added, getting up.
"Later guys. And Thanks."
"Sure thing Billie boy," Tre said.
"How are you guys getting home?" I asked.
"We're gonna be nice and walk home. That way you guys get a car. Let's just say, it's my anniversary gift to you guys."
"Oh, thanks?"
They both nodded as they began walking towards the parking lot. I looked Billie Joe hoping he'd explain his plans a little more.
"Okay, now that they're gone, the date shall begin. Okay, my plans for tonight. A picnic under this tree, as we watch the sun slowly start to set. I have a big blanket for us to sit on, and if it gets chilly another blanket for us to cover up with."
"Oo..." I said sitting down on the blanket. "Come sit Billie babe."
He smiled and sat down next to me. I kissed him on the lips.
"Mm," I started. "I've been craving that taste all day."
I think I really turned on Billie Joe when I said that because he deepened the kiss a little bit and placed his hand on my hip. I giggled, slipping my tongue into his mouth. Billie Joe pulled away licking his lips.
"Okay okay. Let's not get carried away..,may-maybe we should at least eat dinner first."
Attempting to tease him, I was pulling on his bottom lip with my teeth as he talked. I knew he liked it when I did that. I got him to kiss me again on the lips. Of course, I pulled away.
"You fucking tease," He whispered.
"Hey, it was your idea to eat first. Besides, I'm hungry. I haven't ate all day. Don't ask why, I'm stupid."
Billie sighed as he opened the picnic basket.
"And here we got it! I brought I therma-cup of chicken noodle soup for us to share," He said starting to pour a cup of it.
"Mm," I said tasting it. "I lurve chicken noodle soup."
"Exactly."
We sat there together, drinking the chicken noodle soup, watching as the sun was getting closer and closer to starting to set. The water looked beautiful on the lake. This was so perfect. Everything was. Billie Joe's idea for this was perfect.
He had his arm wrapped around me, him every once in a while laying kisses on my neck. I smiled to myself as we finished up the chicken noodle soup.
"So," I said looking back at Billie Joe, whose lap I was now sitting in. "Got any dessert?"
"Oh, I got your dessert right here."
Billie Joe pushed me off his lap, onto the ground, pinning me. I giggled as he started tickling me.
"Ah! Billie! No, I'm gonna pee my pants!"
Billie Joe, of course, didn't stop until I had tears in my eyes, the knuckle-head. He got off of me, helping me to sit up.
"I'm having a great time, Billie. I really am."
"Well, I'm glad. That's what I was planning on," He said. "I love you so much."
"I love you so much, too. I can't stress enough how sweet you were last night, Billie. I was so scared and nervous and you made you so much better."
"Well, I didn't wanna be extremely rough. I know what happens to a girl her first time. And I know how that it must hurt. I love you and that's the last thing I wanna do is hurt you."
"It was good. I had...fun," I said blushing.
"Believe me, so did I."
"I could tell. Especially after I said-"
"Okay! Okay! You don't have to embarrass me anymore, baby."
"Aw, don't be. I thought it was cute...in a weird way."
"Thanks."
I giggled.
"You know, I can think of the perfect gift to give to you. However, I can't give it to you unless we're at home." I said, giving him a mischevious grin.
He smiled back, pretty much getting the hint that I was giving him.
"I love you, Steph. So goddamn much."
I giggled once again, "I love you so goddamn much, too."
**
Billie Joe and I were parked out in front of the house, getting carried away again. We were in the middle of a liplock. I undid my seatbelt, leaning over closer to Billie, slipping my tongue into his mouth. He chuckled while I put my hand under his shirt.
He pulled away, "I'm in the mood, too, but Tre will kill us if we do anything in his car."
I kissed hom once more before nodding. "Yeah."
We both got out of the car, holding hands. This was truly one of the best days of my life. And it was getting better and better. Once we had gotten into the house, I quickly pulled Billie and me to his room. After locking the door behind us, I gave Billie Joe a mischevious grin. Then I pushed him on the bed, crawling on top of him.
"Damn, are you sure this isn't a gift for yourself?" Billie asked as he lifted up my dress a bit.
"Hey, just 'cause I'm a girl, doesn't mean I don't want it, baby."
"I figured that as much."
I undid his belt, pulling it off. He chuckled nervously as I took his shirt off. Billie then kissed me passionately on the lips.
About an 1 1/2 later
"You're so lucky to have green eyes," I told Billie, pulling the comforter closer to me. "God, why is your room so damn cold?"
"I got a fan going."
"Oh."
He smiled at me, wrapping his arm around my bare back, pulling me closer to him. I ran my hand through his might and slightly damp hair.
"Your messed up hair is so cute."
"So is yours. You look beautiful right now. I love," He said, placing a kiss upon my lips. "Everything about you is perfect. You body, your soul, your taste."
He kissed me again.
"Thanks."
I snuggled my head into his chest, leaving kisses on it.
"Do you regret anything we've done?" I asked after a moment.
"No. Why do you?"
"I almost thought I would, but I don't."
I placed my hand on his face, kissing him sweetly on the lips.
I couldn't believe how in love I was.
"Did you happen to tell Mike and Tre about us having sex?"
"Why do you ask?"
"Because they looked at me weird. And since you're really good friends with them, I thought you would."
"Well, yeah. I did."
Again, I kissed him on the lips, looking at the clock. It was around nine something.
"Baby," I said kissing him. "When does your mom get here?"
"I don't know."
He placed his hand on my stomach, pushing me gently on my back. Then deepened our kissing.
"You have no idea?"
He shook his head as I put my arm on his bare lower back.
"Should we be worried at all?"
"Nah. I told her about today. So she took the night shift."
Billie Joe started kissing my neck. I sighed, laying the side of my head on his pillow.
"Your pillow smells like you."
"Is that bad or good?"
"Good."
His lips were pressed against mine once again until the phone rang. I sighed.
"This mood is great. Why does the phone have to fucking ring?"
"Because God's pissed at us. We're sinning."
"Yes, we're like the only people in the world having premarital sex."
"Maybe."
I shook my head. "More like doubtfully. And stop ringing you stupid phone!"
"I'll just get it I guess."
I sighed. Mother fucking phone. Of course it was gonna ring. Just had to ring. Oh well, I guess. Our anniversary was great. I loved it and I loved him.
And I loved him.
Slowly and quietly I walked out of my room, wondering where everyone was. Ollie nor Billie were around that I could tell of. I just yawned as I walked into the kitchen to get something to eat, until I noticed a note on the table.
Baby,
Ollie's at work right now. I don't know when she'll be back. But I won't be home until later. However, at 7:00 tonight, you should be ready to go someplace. Just so you know, you don't have to wear something really fancy. Maybe a skirt or a nice dress. But nothing real extravagant. I love you baby and I hope this will be a fun day for you. I love you so much.
Love Billie.
P.S. I love you.
As I finished up the note, I smiled to myself.
**
"So are you two gonna have fun tonight?" Tre asked with a cheeky grin.
"Hopefully," Billie said, not really getting what Tre meant.
Mike looked up, "I think he's talking about sex, Billie."
"Oh. I knew that. Well, uh..."
"You know, like what you had planned. Or well, were thinking about that. Your guys' first time."
"Yeah...well when we went home last night...um..."
Tre and Mike looked up from what they were looking at, giving Billie a weird look.
"You mean, you guys had sex...last night?" Tre asked.
"...Yeah."
"Hey, you're the first one in the band to lose it. Nice going."
"I thought it'd be you. Considering the way you are."
"Yeah, really."
"Well, you guys were all over each other last night. Truthfully, I'm not shocked," Mike said. "I'm surprised you didn't start it in the theater."
"Hey! Like I said. It wasn't my fault. Steph was wearing that black tank top. The one with the spaghetti straps and low front. And it was really revealing. And I couldn't help but stare at her bare neck and shoulders. And her hair was up so it was very noticiable. I couldn't help myself."
"Whoa, easy ombre. Don't get a boner," Tre said, watching Billie Joe having flashbacks of last night. "Because if you do, you're gonna have to suffer."
"I could go into your bathroom."
"That's disgusting!" Mike said covering his ears. "Why the hell are you talking about that?"
"Because Billie Joe's having flashbacks of last night."
"And I'm gonna be having flashbacks for a while. I mean, when we started, it was..incredible. And felt so good. It was like we were grind-"
"Billie, I'm warning you."
"Alright! I'm done! I'm done."
"Thank God. I don't wanna hear about you having pleasure with your girlfriend."
"You probably do!" Billie said laughing. "You probably have the hots for her."
"Nah, I mean she's beautiful but she's yours and I know my bounderies. But you just had to go out with one of the prettiest girls didn't you?"
"I don't know. But God she's beautiful and I love her so much."
"Trust me when I say, we can tell," Mike said with a smile and nod.
**
It was almost 7:00 and I was checking myself in the mirror. I was wearing my favorite dress. It was a black dress that was a few inchs above my knees. Around my waste and and to the end of my dress was this pretty see through red layer that flared a bit at the ends. I didn't want to look too nice so I just wore black flip flops and staightened my hair, pulling it into a low pony-tail. I thought I didn't look too bad.
I had to admit that I was pretty nervous. As I walked into the living to wait for everyone else, I couldn't help but think what exactly was going on. Would Billie Joe and I go on a date by ourselves? And if so, where? I hated waiting. But I knew I wouldn't have to wait too long.
All of a sudden I heard a door close and I stood up, thinking it was more than likely Billie Joe. And of course it was. He looked me up and down with a smile.
"God, Stephanie. You look beautiful," He said, walking over to be and placing his hands on my hips.
I smiled and whispered in Billie's ear, "Thank you for last night. You were so gentle and sweet. I love you and it was incredible."
"I love you, too. And you're welcome. It was incredible."
Billie Joe kissed me on the lips passionately. His kiss was full of love and excitement. Mine was as well. I deepened the kiss a bit, giggling as I pulled away.
"Maybe we should save it for later," I said with a cheeky grin.
Billie Joe nodded. "We gotta get going anyways."
"Where we going?"
"You know that park that they have uptown?"
"Yeah," I said closing the front door behind me.
"Well, we're going there."
"For?"
"You'll see."
I grunted in frustration, grabbing Billie Joe's hand. He pulled me with him to Tre's car, which was empty.
"Tre's letting you borrow his car?" I asked as we got into the car.
"Yes ma'am."
It took about 5 minutes to get to the park. I was excited, I had to admit it. And I was a little impatient. But I figured, if Billie Joe was planning it, it'd be sweet and thoughtful. And who knows, maybe even a bit...scary.
He had parked a spot and gotten out of the car, opening the door for me. I smiled and thanked him, placing a kiss on the cheek.
"So, now where to?" I asked, Billie Joe grabbing my hand.
"Just follow me, babe."
He lead me a little ways away from the parking lot and closer to the lake. I saw a little tree with stuff under it, and that's when I noticed Tre and Mike. They were talking about something until Tre noticed us. "It's about time!"
"Sorry it took a while," Billie said, still holding my hand.
"It's okay," He said. "Well, we'll be leaving you lovely couple."
"Uh, yeah. What Tre said," Mike added, getting up.
"Later guys. And Thanks."
"Sure thing Billie boy," Tre said.
"How are you guys getting home?" I asked.
"We're gonna be nice and walk home. That way you guys get a car. Let's just say, it's my anniversary gift to you guys."
"Oh, thanks?"
They both nodded as they began walking towards the parking lot. I looked Billie Joe hoping he'd explain his plans a little more.
"Okay, now that they're gone, the date shall begin. Okay, my plans for tonight. A picnic under this tree, as we watch the sun slowly start to set. I have a big blanket for us to sit on, and if it gets chilly another blanket for us to cover up with."
"Oo..." I said sitting down on the blanket. "Come sit Billie babe."
He smiled and sat down next to me. I kissed him on the lips.
"Mm," I started. "I've been craving that taste all day."
I think I really turned on Billie Joe when I said that because he deepened the kiss a little bit and placed his hand on my hip. I giggled, slipping my tongue into his mouth. Billie Joe pulled away licking his lips.
"Okay okay. Let's not get carried away..,may-maybe we should at least eat dinner first."
Attempting to tease him, I was pulling on his bottom lip with my teeth as he talked. I knew he liked it when I did that. I got him to kiss me again on the lips. Of course, I pulled away.
"You fucking tease," He whispered.
"Hey, it was your idea to eat first. Besides, I'm hungry. I haven't ate all day. Don't ask why, I'm stupid."
Billie sighed as he opened the picnic basket.
"And here we got it! I brought I therma-cup of chicken noodle soup for us to share," He said starting to pour a cup of it.
"Mm," I said tasting it. "I lurve chicken noodle soup."
"Exactly."
We sat there together, drinking the chicken noodle soup, watching as the sun was getting closer and closer to starting to set. The water looked beautiful on the lake. This was so perfect. Everything was. Billie Joe's idea for this was perfect.
He had his arm wrapped around me, him every once in a while laying kisses on my neck. I smiled to myself as we finished up the chicken noodle soup.
"So," I said looking back at Billie Joe, whose lap I was now sitting in. "Got any dessert?"
"Oh, I got your dessert right here."
Billie Joe pushed me off his lap, onto the ground, pinning me. I giggled as he started tickling me.
"Ah! Billie! No, I'm gonna pee my pants!"
Billie Joe, of course, didn't stop until I had tears in my eyes, the knuckle-head. He got off of me, helping me to sit up.
"I'm having a great time, Billie. I really am."
"Well, I'm glad. That's what I was planning on," He said. "I love you so much."
"I love you so much, too. I can't stress enough how sweet you were last night, Billie. I was so scared and nervous and you made you so much better."
"Well, I didn't wanna be extremely rough. I know what happens to a girl her first time. And I know how that it must hurt. I love you and that's the last thing I wanna do is hurt you."
"It was good. I had...fun," I said blushing.
"Believe me, so did I."
"I could tell. Especially after I said-"
"Okay! Okay! You don't have to embarrass me anymore, baby."
"Aw, don't be. I thought it was cute...in a weird way."
"Thanks."
I giggled.
"You know, I can think of the perfect gift to give to you. However, I can't give it to you unless we're at home." I said, giving him a mischevious grin.
He smiled back, pretty much getting the hint that I was giving him.
"I love you, Steph. So goddamn much."
I giggled once again, "I love you so goddamn much, too."
**
Billie Joe and I were parked out in front of the house, getting carried away again. We were in the middle of a liplock. I undid my seatbelt, leaning over closer to Billie, slipping my tongue into his mouth. He chuckled while I put my hand under his shirt.
He pulled away, "I'm in the mood, too, but Tre will kill us if we do anything in his car."
I kissed hom once more before nodding. "Yeah."
We both got out of the car, holding hands. This was truly one of the best days of my life. And it was getting better and better. Once we had gotten into the house, I quickly pulled Billie and me to his room. After locking the door behind us, I gave Billie Joe a mischevious grin. Then I pushed him on the bed, crawling on top of him.
"Damn, are you sure this isn't a gift for yourself?" Billie asked as he lifted up my dress a bit.
"Hey, just 'cause I'm a girl, doesn't mean I don't want it, baby."
"I figured that as much."
I undid his belt, pulling it off. He chuckled nervously as I took his shirt off. Billie then kissed me passionately on the lips.
About an 1 1/2 later
"You're so lucky to have green eyes," I told Billie, pulling the comforter closer to me. "God, why is your room so damn cold?"
"I got a fan going."
"Oh."
He smiled at me, wrapping his arm around my bare back, pulling me closer to him. I ran my hand through his might and slightly damp hair.
"Your messed up hair is so cute."
"So is yours. You look beautiful right now. I love," He said, placing a kiss upon my lips. "Everything about you is perfect. You body, your soul, your taste."
He kissed me again.
"Thanks."
I snuggled my head into his chest, leaving kisses on it.
"Do you regret anything we've done?" I asked after a moment.
"No. Why do you?"
"I almost thought I would, but I don't."
I placed my hand on his face, kissing him sweetly on the lips.
I couldn't believe how in love I was.
"Did you happen to tell Mike and Tre about us having sex?"
"Why do you ask?"
"Because they looked at me weird. And since you're really good friends with them, I thought you would."
"Well, yeah. I did."
Again, I kissed him on the lips, looking at the clock. It was around nine something.
"Baby," I said kissing him. "When does your mom get here?"
"I don't know."
He placed his hand on my stomach, pushing me gently on my back. Then deepened our kissing.
"You have no idea?"
He shook his head as I put my arm on his bare lower back.
"Should we be worried at all?"
"Nah. I told her about today. So she took the night shift."
Billie Joe started kissing my neck. I sighed, laying the side of my head on his pillow.
"Your pillow smells like you."
"Is that bad or good?"
"Good."
His lips were pressed against mine once again until the phone rang. I sighed.
"This mood is great. Why does the phone have to fucking ring?"
"Because God's pissed at us. We're sinning."
"Yes, we're like the only people in the world having premarital sex."
"Maybe."
I shook my head. "More like doubtfully. And stop ringing you stupid phone!"
"I'll just get it I guess."
I sighed. Mother fucking phone. Of course it was gonna ring. Just had to ring. Oh well, I guess. Our anniversary was great. I loved it and I loved him.
And I loved him.
