"I'm the son of Rage and Love, The jesus of suburbia"
I love how jesus of suburbia always seems to be the sound track to my life. How when I listen to it I always think that it couldnt have been writen about anyone elses life but my own, but the realization that it wasnt is always what makes me feel like I'm not alone. Just knowing that atleast one dude seems to understand, thats usually what gets me through life.
I've been a suburban misfit all my life. I'm the kid that hides out in her room with my cigarettes and Mt Dew and has jesus of suburbia blaring from the speakers. So loud that it seems to drown out the entire world but most importantly, it drowns out my own thoughts. I'm the kid that does nothing but day dream about a life other then the one I've always known. This is my life.
"And theres nothing wrong with me, this is how I'm suppost to be, in the land of make believe that dont believe in me" This lyric is one of the ones that hits me the hardest everytime I listen to it. If you've ever been made to believe you're worthless and will never amount to nothing by people (including you're own family) just because of you're beliefs, clothing style, or life style, you understand why that is.
Theres a certain way this song expresses pain and emotion that is so completely apathetic that its just blaintly obvious that the person singing it, Billie Joe, has been through it all before too. That he knows every ounce of emotion that you are feeling while you listen to it. That feeling of complete understanding and none judgement is why this song is what it is. Every lyric sung is not just heard, but its felt.
"The motto was just a lie, it says "home is where you're heart is" but what a shame, cause everyones heart doesnt beat the same, we're beating out of time." In my life, truer words have never been spoken. My family and I couldnt be anymore different. Which is a severe problem in their eyes. I'm not and have never been the person they want me to be. I've never wanted to be who they are. For this, they dislike me greatly. I've always tried to pay no attention to that fact. But sometimes it does get me down. I've had my bags packed more times then I can even remember, but it always ends up the same way. I always end up feeling too guilty, my brother ran away when I was younger and I know how bad that hurts, to have a member of you're own family leave without saying goodbye and never hearing from them again. Him doing that is what put my family where it is today, broken. No matter how bad I want to leave, even though its their fault just like it was before, I just dont know if I could do what he did to them. One day I'll probably do it. But thats really in their own hands.
Somewhere buried inside all the lyrics that make up jesus of suburbia is who I am. Every ounce of pain, everytime I've felt insucure, everytime I've hated myself because other people thought I should, everytime I've ever felt like no one understood, this song is what helps me get through it all every single day.
"I dont feel any shame, I wont apologize"
I've been a suburban misfit all my life. I'm the kid that hides out in her room with my cigarettes and Mt Dew and has jesus of suburbia blaring from the speakers. So loud that it seems to drown out the entire world but most importantly, it drowns out my own thoughts. I'm the kid that does nothing but day dream about a life other then the one I've always known. This is my life.
"And theres nothing wrong with me, this is how I'm suppost to be, in the land of make believe that dont believe in me" This lyric is one of the ones that hits me the hardest everytime I listen to it. If you've ever been made to believe you're worthless and will never amount to nothing by people (including you're own family) just because of you're beliefs, clothing style, or life style, you understand why that is.
Theres a certain way this song expresses pain and emotion that is so completely apathetic that its just blaintly obvious that the person singing it, Billie Joe, has been through it all before too. That he knows every ounce of emotion that you are feeling while you listen to it. That feeling of complete understanding and none judgement is why this song is what it is. Every lyric sung is not just heard, but its felt.
"The motto was just a lie, it says "home is where you're heart is" but what a shame, cause everyones heart doesnt beat the same, we're beating out of time." In my life, truer words have never been spoken. My family and I couldnt be anymore different. Which is a severe problem in their eyes. I'm not and have never been the person they want me to be. I've never wanted to be who they are. For this, they dislike me greatly. I've always tried to pay no attention to that fact. But sometimes it does get me down. I've had my bags packed more times then I can even remember, but it always ends up the same way. I always end up feeling too guilty, my brother ran away when I was younger and I know how bad that hurts, to have a member of you're own family leave without saying goodbye and never hearing from them again. Him doing that is what put my family where it is today, broken. No matter how bad I want to leave, even though its their fault just like it was before, I just dont know if I could do what he did to them. One day I'll probably do it. But thats really in their own hands.
Somewhere buried inside all the lyrics that make up jesus of suburbia is who I am. Every ounce of pain, everytime I've felt insucure, everytime I've hated myself because other people thought I should, everytime I've ever felt like no one understood, this song is what helps me get through it all every single day.
"I dont feel any shame, I wont apologize"
Jesus Of Suburbia is such a masterpeice! I dont know any Green Day fan who cant relate to this or at least love it(: awesome blog!!!
Xx!koOkie!xX, May 6th, 2011 at 01:03:15pm
Love your blog!.
and i know how you feel.
This song is just very harsh ..
many people can relate to the song..
including myself ..
AngelinaMischief, October 9th, 2010 at 04:38:00pm
I can realte to almost everything in this blog, and in the song. It's kinda comforting. And to know at least Billie went through all of this, and is doin great now, gives me hope that I'll be ok too,
nimrod-kid, September 26th, 2010 at 07:03:54pm
omg. i can relate to this song too. jesus of suburbia is my whole life story. i have such a dysfunctional, poor family and if u spent a day in my house-hold, you would understand why i ran away to my boyfriend's house for like 3 days. i pretty much hide my true self from my mom becuz if i ever told her i drank Mt. Dew and ritalin together, smoked cigarettes and was bisexual, she would throw a fit, get a motel room and leave. And i honestly think my family doesnt understand my emotional tolerance. the only one that understand me is my boyfriend and even he can't help me sometimes. i mean, im only one girl for gosh frickin' sake. how much can i take until i explode? but im grateful for this f*cked up road i call 'home' becuz it made me realize that i need to be something bigger than 'This town that don't exist' and i thank God for that. well, thanks for putting this blog on. ive been needing to get this off my chest for a while.
XxDearly BelovedxX, August 22nd, 2010 at 09:01:11pm
Love the blog [: I know exactly what you mean, theres so many things in my life which i could relate to that song. I kinda feel the same about 80 from Kerplunk.
anyways, like i said, great blog :D
Lauralovesgreenday, August 15th, 2010 at 07:43:24am
Thanks for reading this you guys. =)
Stay_Brutal!, August 9th, 2010 at 07:21:39pm
i understand what you mean about jesus of suburbia being the soundtrack of your life and inside every lyric is a part of who you are. its the exact same way with me. i ran away once but i only made it 4 miles bc i felt guilty and i had to walk another 4 back. i ran away because of jesus of suburbia and had it on repeat on my mp3 player the entire time. tales from another broken home is what made my decision final, even though i cam back.
xXSummer!PsychoXx, August 9th, 2010 at 06:46:52pm
I can not exsspress how much that sounds like what I go through, except the fact that my family use to be close, they ignore the fact that I will never be what they want, or how they want, they could never except the fact that i am bisexual if i told them, they will just never except me, but no matter what I know I will always love them, no matter how many miles I will soon put between us, they are also responsible for some aspects of who I am, and who I will be, even if they don't like it, I can never seem to fit in even with the 'outcasts' i'm still misfited, and i'm now realizing that i'm ok with that, i won't always be alone, and walking such a difunctional road will only inspire me more
so in a way, i thank them for their narrow minds
Exploring Nightmares, August 7th, 2010 at 04:42:46pm